ManchildBy Stephanie Williams
I'm going to die he said confidently my T-cell count is at 84 It's just a matter of time but don't worry, I am at total peace with myself . . .and I stare at him blankly I am searching desperately for something to say I feel the need to say something because there is no assurance that he will be here tomorrow or I, for that matter He held his head back to recycle his tears he didn't want to let them fall he didn't want me to see him cry Oh but the eyes never lie I move to give him a hug I am convinced that he needs a hug But it is me who is scared. . . and lonely Some days when I think about it too hard I miss him and he has not even left I miss him now though he is in my arms my head pressed against his chest Now the tears begin to swell up in my eyes My hearts grows heavy I'm going to die but I am at total peace with myself he said with tears of joy and sorrow flowing down his cheeks as he looks away and smiles. . .