I am sitting here getting ready to write my second column and I just realized that I have no one in my life. Sure, I have a few good friends ... good friends who I can trust with everything ... and they know I am gay. So I sit here thinking of the cute freshman and sophomores that I saw at school today ... and I pity myself. I have been without a boyfriend for five years. Man, that is lame ... but I live in a town that is so sheltered that if I told anyone that I was gay other than my best friends ... I think I would be banished.
OK, that's enough about me...
Gay Youth and the Internet
Well, this is what I want to talk about this month. If it wasn't for AOL, I think that I would have no clue about my sexual orientation. AOL has allowed me, with confidence, to explore the gay world ... and the best part was I didn't have to worry about me getting caught by my parents reading stuff. But ironically, I caught them reading my stuff. Something's wrong here! Anyway, I was thinking that if there was no AOL or Internet where would the gay youth of today be? Would we be here ... just much more restricted in what we did and do? Would some of us not find out that we were gay until late high school or even college? Now I know that I have said I knew from a very early age, but I never really knew what it was called or if what I was feeling was OK until four years ago when I got AOL.
So I guess I am trying to say that even though some of our lives really suck, just think about trying to grow up gay 20 years ago when there was no 'net. Can you imagine where we would be, what we would be doing?? I know for sure I can't. I don't even think that I want to.
So that is all I have to say this month,
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