James W.

December 1997

Hi, my name is James. I guess that I should start off with a little about me, I'm 18 as of December 1st. For those of you who would like to know what I look like, I'm 6'4" I have brown hair and green eyes, and am a student at Lambton College in Sarnia Ontario. Most of my time is spent on the net, sailing or at school, and if you happen to be on IRC you can find me as Kards18 on the undernet.

I moved to Sarnia in September to go to school and think it is the best move I have ever made. Coming from a small town, I didn't have any gay friends there and it always bugged me not to be able to be myself at anytime except when I was on the net. That just wasn't enough for me, I needed some human contact just for someone to talk to. Now that I have moved up to Sarnia I have met many gay people and have for once in my life been able to be who I am.

This has really helped me relieve stress and become more positive about who I am. Less than a month ago, I would not have even thought about writing an article like this and could not bring myself to say the words "I am gay" even though I knew it in my heart that I was and had known for quite a long time.

I have been struggling with myself since the age of 14, when I first thought that I might be gay. It has been an eternity since then for me constantly having to hide things like letters and e-mails from my parents. However, I have decided that I am going to tell my mother next time that I'm home. I think she knows anyway and I'm sure that she will accept me for who I am. The last few weeks before I left for school, she was making comments that she normally would not. For example, when her homophobic boyfriend would say something about gays or crack a gay joke, she would say something like "there is nothing wrong with being gay".

Well that's about it for now, If you enjoyed it or would just like to chat, e-mail me or look me up on IRC, and thank you for taking the time to read it.

Till next time

James W., magicman@mnsi.net

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