February 1998

Ste AffligÈ

the Saint Who was Crucified for Her Faith

Anyone here watching 'Babylon Five' on TNT? The quote in one of the B5 episodes 'The Deconstruction of Falling Stars' had a strong impact on me as it went like that: "This is how the world ends. Swallowed in fire, but not in darkness. You will live on. The voice of all our ancestors, the voices of our fathers and our mothers to the last generation. We created the world we think you would have wished for us, and now we leave the cradle for the last time." Interesting.

People hold faith in you. You are the inspiration of their faiths.

People tell you things they think will shock you. They, off guard, tell you things that they're not aware that I wasn't told of or perhaps prepared for?

A close mate told me that he ceased being bisexual and is, now, gay - it was like the second "coming-out" for him. It's difficult keeping to your bisexuality in London; all my bisexual mates say that they're gay when they're at my place but when I visit their places (out of London), they announce "I'm bisexual and I can't stand being gay!"


Why do I feel like the confused Alice as she fell down the rabbit hole to the Wonderland; hey you lots, I suggest you lots read the sequel to "Alice Through the Looking Glass" - "Automated Alice" by Jeff Noon. Noon caught the Dodgson/Carroll atmosphere perfectly!

I won't be surprised if the mate go back to his place in Newcastle and say "Oh, I'm bisexual, yes, it's because London's a crazy place!" Back to the square one! What's next, I suppose? Turning straight?

The truth bespoken is that I told all my "confusix" mates (I coined that word somewhere on the Internet!) that I don't care if they're straight, gay or bi as long as they're remained my friends.

I suppose so.

If people keep to their decisions, the world will be a dull place!

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