July 1998

"Guess what? I'm Gay."

I don't think I have ever had a better feeling in my life than right after I said that on Wednesday, June 3rd, at 1:25 P.M.. I was officially out, to one person.

At the time I couldn't even believe I had done it. For the first time I felt as if I wasn't alone, that I wasn't going to lose all my friends by being the way I am.

The response I expected from him was "No way, you can't be gay!" or "That's disgusting!" I didn't get either. All he said was "Are you sure?" I replied, "Yeah, I've been pretty sure for a while, but now I'm positive." He just said, "That's okay, who cares anyway?"

Wow, I never thought that I had a real friend. Pretty sad isn't it? I never thought I had a shoulder to cry on, someone to complain and be sad with. Now I know I do, and his name is George. I owe him a lot, more than I can say.

I'm gay. Who cares? I have crushes on guys. I just want a boyfriend, a person I can love. I want to hug him and kiss him and tell him I love you.

Unfortunately a lot of people care, people that think that if you are a guy, and want to kiss or love another guy in a romantic way, you are going to hell. People that band together and say everyone else that is not like them is wrong. People who ridicule, fight, oppress, condemn, and just generally hurt those who are different.

To them I say: "I just want to love someone that will love me back. I just happen to want that someone to be male. I don't have to have sex, I just want to love him deeply. I want to be with him all the time. I want to look into his eyes and know that we will love each other until the end of time."

What did you think of that? Write me at joe728@hotmail.com

Stay tuned for next month where I will pick apart the song "One" by the best band in the world U2.

Don't Worry, Be Happy,



I am 13, and live in Southern California. I have just graduated from the eighth grade at a Catholic School which sucked, and am going to a very good independent high school. I like Math, but still get B's. I LOVE Literature, Grammar, and Music and always get A's. Some favorite musicians are: U2, Stevie Ray Vaughan, John Coltrane, the Stray Cats, Benny Goodman, Led Zeppelin, and Eric Clapton.

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