July 1998

Given To Fly

"He floated back down cause he wanted to share,
The key to the locks on the chains he saw everywhere,
But first he was stripped, and then he was stabbed,
By a faceless man, well fuckers.. he still stands,

And he still gives his love he just gives it away,
The love he receives is the love that is saved,
And sometimes is seen a strange spot in the sky,
A human being that was given to fly..." - Pearl Jam

I've had a lot on my mind recently. This past month I've been very busy, trying to finish a short story anthology that I've been working on since January. I finally began to type again within the past month as I have found some of my life experiences to be worthy fictionalized. I don't mean to sound egotistical, but these stories even though the names, the genders, and the original actions had changed, I realized that I had a lot to say and this was the only way to do it. I love to write, so as of this Friday I will hope to have finished my first ever real anthology. I have 27 stories as my goal and so far, 18 of my ideas have been materialized on the computer screen. And finally, I've now been able to pick up the pieces that were destroyed when I was shot down by someone whom I love very much. In fact, that was the reason why I began to type again once I had gone on writers block. The writing that I've done so far has been really good, with some simple stories, almost about nothing at all, to complexities beyond my wildest dreams. Keep watching the skies...

Another thing I realize as I'm writing this is the fact that my first year anniversary of writing for Oasis has come and gone, and I want to especially thank some of the writers for sharing their time and talents in order to motivate me to begin writing as well. Without the bravery of some of these people, I don't think a lot of us would have began writing. I also want to thank everyone who wrote me on my Oasis article entitled The Power of Goodbye. I promise to get back to you all soon, as I am still pushing a few deadlines here in order to get these short stories done.

So I turn 21 this June, and I've made some concrete decisions for the next year. My first is to stay away from school for year and explore my options with the part of my degree that I have. I'm also planning to enjoy life as much as possible, as I resolve to go to Edgefest this July coming up as well as maybe go see NSYNC too. Hey they're actually a boy band I like. My next decision is to get my turntables this summer so I can begin to spin. This has been a goal of mine since I was introduced to the rave scene last year.

I've also realized that you sometimes don't realize what you have until it's gone. My best friend and I were planning to do Edgefest together as a birthday gift for him and when I went to give him a call, the number was disconnected. I immediately panicked and finally when he did call me showering me in apologies I realized how much sometimes I take things for granted. I'm forever thankful for the fact that I have a best friend like him who acres about me a lot, and I will be forever thankful for it. Anyhow have a good summer everyone. Catch ya in August.


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