September 1998

This month has been pure hell for me. My boyfriend that I wrote about is back, living at home. the reason that he was kicked out was because he was at a party, got drunk and his parents came to the party to see what was going on. They caught him drunk and they kicked him out. He stopped by the first day that he was home. He pull a gun on me and told him to give him the best orgasm of his life. I haven't seen him since.

I'm so confused.....I met a girl.....2 hour make-out session ... goooooooooooodddddddddddddd.

What happened, that goes against everything that I believe in about myself. Her friend said that it was hormones, or was it the fact the for once in my life someone is paying attention to me? The horrendous nature of my sin does much to explain the extent of my confusion. If you understand what I just said, you are as confused as I am. If you didn't, you are about as normal as I once was. Since this has happened I have been depressed. Let me tell you, depression is no laughing matter.( no pun intended.)

All my love,


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