October 1998

Hello, my name is Angela and I'm 15 years old. I live In San Diego, California. School started and it's not as bad as last year.

Everything's going good for me. My girlfriend and I are happy and I think I'm finally in a stable relationship. My only real problem is my family.

My sister still doesn't understand. Today, she asked me if I was sexually active and I told her I was. She looked surprised and amazed that she didn't know something about me. My family is ignorant to my life and they will never understand the way I really feel.

There's no use in telling my family why I prefer girls or why I ever dated boys. They just wont understand. Sometimes, I think my life would be a lot easier if I didn't have a family and I lived alone but then I don't think I would have the courage to stand up and not stand down to everyone.

A few days ago, I was really depressed and even thought of taking my own life just because I felt so alone and no one in my family understood me or even cared for me. Then I realized that I have to be here for some reason and I'm not going to let my family or anyone get in my way of being happy.


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