Sean Dunbar

October 1998

Well.. it's roughly 5am on September 14th. This needs to be in in less than 24 hours. I had an article almost finished. then while installing Linux on another partition, I had a slight "accident" with fdisk.. and kind of wiped my entire hard drive clean. Oops.

So.. let's see if I can get this right. I hope I can. But nobody reads my stuff anyway.

Alright then. It's my 2nd article for Oasis. My first one was, well, downright lousy. This one will probably be worse, since I have school in a couple of hours and want to get this in at least a few hours early.

So anyway. This past month has been kind of crappy. I'm not doing all that great in school; instead of studying like a good little student, I've been going out way too much. I got to see Crystal Method perform live (they put on an AWESOME show too!), which was cool. I also got to go to HordeFest when they landed in Dallas. Went to a good small party at a friend's place a couple of weeks ago. But aside from all that, it kind of sucked. Had a minor accident (my first.. one car accident at that, how embarrassing). Not getting along all that great with my parents right now. I've been pretty bitchy around friends, and I'm sure they've noticed. Behind on my bills. Had a part time job (on-call computer tech), but I haven't heard anything in over a week, so I think it's safe to assume that's shot to hell. Guess I should start looking for another job sometime soon, since I have roughly $20 in my bank account at the moment.

Okay, enough bitching. I've found myself in a little bit of a jam. A good friend of mine has been going out with someone for a couple of months now. I just found out that the guy he's going out with... might be cheating. With not one, but *2* other guys. It pisses me off, since I don't want to see my friend get hurt. However.. I don't know if I should say anything or not. Kind of a confusing moral issue (gays have morals now? What's the world coming to?!). Where's Ann Landers when you need her?

On the bright side. Dallas' Gay Pride events are coming up rather quickly. Six Flags down in Arlington (about an hour away from where I live, in Carrollton) has a Gay Day every year, sponsored by a local gay newspaper (which, I don't remember.. we have two, the Dallas Voice and the Texas Triangle, if I remember right). I went last year, and had a lot of fun. The downside to last year was it was INCREDIBLY hot (over 100 all day). Hopefully this year will be a bit cooler. The only thing I didn't like about it was there were a "few" (okay, several) guys in their 40's and 50's, wearing leather vests, Daisy Duke shorts, and trying to grab every piece of ass that walked their way. Annoying, to me anyway. And, later that day, I was walking with a friend through the park, and some girl yells "FAGGOTS". I turned around and yelled something like "HELL YEAH" or something like that, I don't remember (it was, after all, a year ago). I might actually participate in the parade this year; that is, if it doesn't get televised. I have extremely homophobic family members who live a few minutes away that keep up with the news; things could get rather ugly. Interestingly enough, my car now displays one of those nifty Darwin "evolution" fish-with-feet thingies. And my backpack has a peace symbol, in 6 different colors (guess which ones?).

Subject hopping time again! After looking through last month's articles, I'm relieved to see I'm not the only guy that can't find somebody. I'm interested in a few guys, but they either won't give me the time of day, or they're involved with someone else (and probably wouldn't give me the time of day anyway). I have 2 guys interested in me (that I know of); I don't care for either of them more as a friend though. Unfortunately, one of them can't seem to get that into his head. I've gone out on a whole TWO dates in the past, oh, 6 months.

One more subject change, back to school. I'm hoping to bring my grades up enough to transfer to UT Austin. I do believe I mentioned that in my last column. However, sometime in the very near future (probably next weekend), I'm going to drive down to Austin, which is under 3 hours away, and tour the campus, plus get all the information I'm going to need. I'm hoping I can transfer next fall. Austin is close enough that I can come back to Dallas every weekend, but far enough to keep my parents from bugging me every day *smile*

So.. this is getting rather lengthy. I'll end it here....

Think I'll go to a park now or something... maybe I'll actually be on time for school today.



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