Troy N. Diggs

December 1998

I need you to change my stats on the Columns page; I'm a 22-year old senior at Arkansas State now.

November 25, 1998

Here at Arkansas State, registration for the Spring semester began last week, and one of the steps in the whole process thing is to speak to an advisor. I went to my advisor, talked with her, and got a really really scary reality check.

She told me that if I played my cards right, I can graduate next August.

That concept just totally freaks me out. For the first time in my life, I won't have to go to classes anymore; I'll be thrust out into something called "the real world."

You see, between the time I graduated high school in 1994 and now, I've always had aspirations for what to do after I graduated. I wanted to move to Memphis or Little Rock or Fayetteville, get started producing the news at a television station down there, and start a new phase in my life.... what I've never counted on was the day that it would get here. I never really thought about *when* all that is going to take place, and from the looks of things, it's going to take place in less than a year from now.

So, I'm left with a big question: where do I go from here? I mean, I'm starting the process, it seems, because I'm moving out of the house in the next month or so, and I've got a good job and a good social life... sure, there's ups and downs, but soon, that's all about to change. I'll be out of school and in a new environment doing new things.

It really scares me. "Can I get a job?" "What do I need on my resume tape?" "Where's the good gay clubs in town?" These questions are popping up now, and I don't have answers to them, and really, nobody does (except for maybe that last one). Do I need to be worrying? I don't have answer to that one, either.

However.... the changes are inevitable. Like it or not, I do have to graduate some time and move on.... I do think I'm ready... but that first step is still a doozy.


eMail is good! TDiggs@aztec.astate.edu, or visit my Web page at http://www.geocities.com/~tdiggs/

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