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Kristen Foery

April 1999

Masquerade...

Hello, devoted readers. Both of you.

It's been quite a busy month. I was just in my school's production of Fiddler on the Roof. I have come to the realization that spirit gum is about the most evil substance known to mankind. I have also realized that human beings only have so many layers of skin on their faces.

It was interesting to play a man... made me realize that I am definitely not transgendered.

The thing that struck me, however, was that after I scraped off the spirit gum and changed out of my little prayer shawl, I went back to being me.

I realize that this is a simply hideous, overused metaphor... but...

Involved in the play, two of the tech crew, were two of my best friends. One gay man, one kinda sorta confused lesbian. Both closeted.

They're now "dating".

Around here, the slang terms are "faking" or "passing". Basically it's when a gay guy and a gay girl pretend that they're dating to get parents or friends off their back... and in some cases, go on double dates with another pair of queers that they're dating.

Ah, what a tangled web we weave.

Their reasons are good. The very best -- the girl's mother is beginning to think that her and I have a relationship that we don't, and the boy's mother is starting to suspect that he might not like girls. The end result of any such revelations would mean that the three of us would not be able to spend any time together and might ruin our very close and cherished friendships.

The downside of this is that virtually no one knows that they are gay, including some of their closest friends. So in pulling off this grand charade, which, so help me, I am a large part of, we have to lie to basically everyone involved in our lives.

Yeah, this sucks like a Hoover. But the three of us have decided that just because it's a travesty that we should have to do this doesn't mean that we can't have fun with it.

We have forged passionate, deep, heartfelt love letters, acted out massive dramatic scenes, and basically had a grand time of things. And it's worked. So here we go, presenting our little facade of heterosexuality... but... we need to.

Masquerade, indeed....

Kristen
Youth 13-17 List Manager
kristen@youth-guard.org
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