Just one final journal entry before this site shuts down I suppose. My life has undergone some pretty big changes in direction since I was last on here. I'm transferring schools next fall, because the college I'm attending doesn't have an astronomy program and is way too small for my liking. I thought a small college would be ideal for me, but I was wrong. I have very few opportunities to meet new people there, there's really no niche for me to fit into, and it's just too reminiscent of high school with its cliques and everybody knowing everybody else and shit.
i got onto this site some 4-5 odd years ago
i feel like a cycle of my own life is ending and a new one is beginning
one without guys with criminal records
or problems i can't keep up with
a few days the guy who groomed me when i was sixteen
he says you deserve someone to love you you're so pure
you're a fucking cherub
i said i'm not a baby anymore
you can't buy me with those kind of words
you're just an insect
me ex comes up to me and says some shit like
they started a meth lab they want me to sell
he says he called the cops,
this is pretty inconvenient for me, since i've been going through bad feelings for a while, so i really don't know what i'll do without anywhere to write about things i need to write about. i don't really trust anyone else with advice, so i am quite lost.
anyway, i'm going to try making a group on facebook for us all, so add me as a friend if you want to be part of it. my name on there is bobby sunshine, so send me a request and a message regarding your intentions and your alias and i'll invite you.
I've been in my 20s for a few weeks now, and that feels weird to say. I don't really feel like the same person I was at 14 when I opened my account here. Yeah, I was a pretty obnoxious kid, but sometimes I wish I could be that overly sure of myself again. November has been stressful, and it has led to some bad feelings. I've been feeling... I don't know. Purposeless and defective would be my best guess at pinning it down. But now I am home for a few days and decompressing, so that's good.
Hello old friends, and people I maybe never got to be friends with but still would like to -
I don't want to lose you all when the site shuts down - so find me on Facebook, or by Skype, email, phone, whatever! Please!
Phone: 805 807 8020
So here we go again, "this one time in South Town". I think it was a week ago at this point, I was playing in the "studio" and working on new material. It was going pretty good, but nothing mind blowing. Then... "JUST LEAVE!", I stop playing and I'm like "right when I'm playing guitar there's a damn street fight".
I didn't think I'd feel so surreal about it all, but I guess it just hit me. I wonder how many people are checking in often like I am to watch the site crumble away? Kinda like a viking funeral. Gentle pushes off into the great beyond in a silent blaze or something cheesy and poetic.
As I right this there are only nine days left until oasis closes. I purpose we all come to this website on the day it closes and right a final good bye entry. Just a suggestion. Does any one know any similar websites? I suppose this website is closing down due to recent rise in popularity of other social media so I'm looking for something similar to replace it ( not that any one could truly recreate such a website)
I don't really know where to start with this, but I've been doing some thinking about him, going on some walks alone. Ever since around September of last year, I've been getting really negative feelings about and because of him, and I've just been wqlkig them off.
For those who wish to contact me or see this in time before the site shuts down you can PM me I might be keen to share my Facebook as well.
Put a Little Love Away
I've been dreaming about consuming Psilocybin mushrooms more frequently. I don't know why, I've never had interest in them, but they've been appearing in my most recent dreams. Last night I was at an outdoor concert with a lot of my friends, and someone gave me some Psilocybin, which I immediately consumed. It didn't give me any hallucinations, but it did cause me to mostly lose control of my actions; it actually seemed to have more of an alcoholic effect on me than anything else.
So there I was, alone in the same stretch of road from a previous dream many months ago. I'm walking a road in what appears to be a rural area but not devoid of any signs of life, 1 - 2 cars drive by, I see no faces. I'm continually walking a lone road into a neighborhood that seems to appear subtly, I continue walking.