Hi, I'm not sure if anyone remembers me; it's been 9 months since I last posted! So re-introduction...
Name: I used to go by kaleigh (ew) on here, but I'm identifying as ftm now, so it's Kyle
A lot has happened since I last posted (most of it depressing, sorry) so I'll just put into a list some of the major things that are worth mentioning.
Before I get into the story: I swear I'm NOT a gym gladiator.
The atmosphere in the air, the kind of cold/kind of not feeling, the way people are, the colors, the smell of everything, I love fall. It's so beautiful in Vermont when Fall comes, I want to be outside constantly. I'm not really liking being in between seasons right now, it just feels weird, especially when I'm so anxious for fall to get here.
A definition from urban dictionary:
1. Don't talk about boys if you're a lesbian or girls if you're gay. No one will believe you. Gay people just aren't convincing at playing straight and people pick up on that.
So in the midst of searching for a weird holiday to put as the title of this journal entry I found out that this was the anniversary of the stonewall riots. Yay!
I love Halloween! So what if I'm 14 and now "too old" to go trick or treating I still maintain that it's the best holiday ever. Seeing as how it's 1:33 in the morning there's only 128 days left now. Woohoo!! One day closer...lack of sleep causes me to think about this stuff, if you're wondering why I'm telling you this...
So I have to go to diversion yay (note sarcasm.) For those of you who don't know what that is it's when kids 17 and under are caught with alchohol or any other illegal drug and instead of a more severe punishment get counseling or have to do community service. What sucks is I didn't even get caught the night of the party.
Championship girls lacrosse game South Burlington vs. Middlebury 14-9! It's the first time in the history of SB that we've won the championship. I'm so stoked right now!
Possibly the most embarrassing thing happened to me last night. I leaned in to kiss a girl and she didn't know what I was doing so she leaned away and gave me the most confused look. Oh my god it was soooooooooo bad. When she finally got what I was doing the kiss was actually pretty bad too because it was her first. I don't think I can recover from this one.
Today was awesome! May 16th last year I wore a t-shirt to school saying "Let's get one thing STRAIGHT- I'm NOT". Needless to say it was a pretty good method of telling everyone at once. Well, today was May,16 2007 meaning I have spent one year out of the closet!
I'll call her A because that's a cool letter :-) Last week I was introduced to A by a friend, and discovered she is queer (A gives out serious gay vibes). A is a friend of a girl in my Spanish class. About a month ago the girl in my Spanish class told me that her friend is queer, but couldn't tell me who because she wasn't out. Well, I told her I knew it was A.
I've given it a lot of thought and decided that I am in fact a transgender guy. I don't feel my body expresses myself in the way that I want others to see me, and I feel like myself when people mistake me as a biological male.
The name I will be going by is Tristian (pronounced tris-ten), and for my sexuality I will be identifying as straight.