Hey guys i kow i haven't been on in awhile but it's my senior year and i've been super busy. I actually have a favour from all of you south of nowhere fans/ a question.
My sleep cycle is all outta whack so here i am before 645 on a school day and i've been awake sice 545 over an hour tooo early. Im bored I can't really get outta bed because then i'd wake the dogs who'd wake my mother. I tend to be kind and get outta bed at like 730 so i get jet to school by 8. My mom doesn't go to work until 9. But i went to bed last nighht before 9 because i was exhausted from getting like 5 hrs of sleep the night before so i got like 9 hrs of sleep last night maybe bt there was alot of tossing and turning and checking my cell phone to see if it was time to get up yet.
Kay so i no longer have that crush on a boy i've discussed in my last few journal entries which is really good. we're actually more like brother and sister. He's teh protective older brother and im the angel little sister. But really close friends like i tell him EVERYTHING. I told him about my previous abuse and stuff and he was just a really good listener.
I am a lesbian. He is a gay boy. I'm madly in love with him. He's been a really good friend for the past couple weeks and a friend for the past couple months. He's the guy who's smell comforts me (see a couple journals before) Well today we were wrestling on his bed and i was on top of him and i just wanted to fucking kiss him like full on make out. And like when were around we're always ontop of each other like i'll be at the computer and he'll lean over me and sit on the back of the chair and cuddle me or like i give him back massages as i make fun of his lack of back hair.
I met him today he was this really nice gay guy (D) (20yrsold) he was an ex of my newer best friend(M). I just added him then my friend M says yeh J (one ofhis other friends) isn't allowed to hangout with D because his parents said so. And i was really confused and I asked why and friend M just replied oh because whether he's guilty or not no one's quite sure about those kiddie porn, rape and drug scandal. I was shocked so I just googled his name read all the news paper articles... not sure if he's gunna stay on my friends list or what my mom will say.
I just got asked by my mom " Are you sure you're gay?" It wasn't said in a mean way it was actually rather funny. I've been hanging out with my male (gay) friend M ALOT! And i've grown attached to his smell. Well i dropped him off at work today (i'm picking him in like 3 hours again) and so he just let me keep his hat for the time being and his sweater. I'm wearing both and my mom goes "those aren't yours". I"m like no their M's but I love them. Then she said "are you sure you're gay??
So, i joined a gym. Curves to be exact and today I had my first workout. One leg is more sore then the other. But everything else is doing pretty good. It was a good workout. Basicallly i want to look hott for prom and to go off to university (mostly the second). the first couple weeks im not going to change my diet or worry about it too much. They say not to because your body can go into shock. Also I've already started (about a month ago) eating more vegetarian and such so i'm just going to continue eating like i have. Then in a few weeks go for the major changes.
Last night I went to my friend's highschool and saw her school play (grease) my school did it last year. There's honestly sucked like.. and i was pretty sure ours did.. there's definitaly did. But they have a pretty good stage which made it all pretty. There were honestly like 7 different doors it was insane. After wards my friends (H and M) that i went to see it with and I went to this coffee place which is really yummy and met our friend T and her friend C(male) who was in the play. C is the gayest straight boy I've ever met. When he gets mad he shops and buys $110 shoes.
Sometimes i feel as if i don't need this site because I'm gay, i know, my mom knows, my friends know and it's all relatively okay. I haven't had a gf but I'm just waiting it out.
Is it weird that im listening to Highschool musical 2 Refrence tracks as i visually play my part outta the book.
I'm in the pit for HSM 2 so i'm like trying to get the music in my head (it's a bit different then the movie music). I've gone through the book 3 times visually/mentally and i kinda know when some things happen. Next it's playing my clarinet to the music...
HeLP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to get a short hair cut but have no clue what style to go with or if i should go short or anything.. IM just really really tired of my hair!
These are two pics of me.... (the one in the green in teh first pic)
I'm getting another puppy Tomorrow!!! (tomorrow being sunday)
We're naming him Gibson Kai (pronounce KIE)
Im so excited i just got my first acceptance to university!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Carleton university... the same place my parents met and where they both graduated from.. it's in ottawa.
I just read twilight.. and loved it.. well strongly liked it... now im reading new moon.
For all ya'll who have seen Wicked .. how many have you felt that it could easily be a lesbian love story... or is that just me???
lol that's what i was thinking other then OOMG while i watched it last night lol.