So I read this article in the New York Times Magazine about this club at Harvord of people who've taken vows of chastity. The woman who started it considered herself a feminest because she was trying to give women the strength to refuse to have sex with men. So...if abstinence is really about saying no to men, then lesbianism is the way to go.
I went to this gay community center sort of thing today called smyal and it was lots of fun. At first it was really awkward because I'm already shy enough as is and all the people there when I got there were efeminate senior boys in highschool and they were practicing their runway walk to pop music.
The school musical kinda consumed my life. I was the only person doing props, and I was either playing in the orchestra or singing/acting in just about all the songs in the 2 hr show except for a few songs where I did both. Yeah, I've been busy. The show was Ragtime by the way. It came together really late but when it finaly did it was one of the best musicals my school has ever done.
In my last journal entry I said that I was starting a club for gay students and I was going to make an announcment to the whole school about it; well, that didn't happen.
I'm trying to start a club for gay kids at my school. Tommorrow I'm going to make an announcment at the school assembly about it with a teacher, Pam. Pam's gonna be doing all the talking and I'm just gonna stand there next to her.
Today I got back from this leadership retreat that they took all the ninth graders on at my school. They split the grade in half and one half went to one camp and the other half went to another camp. We talked about a lot of stuff pertaining mostly to who we are as individuals and as a class and where we would like to be as individuals and as a class by the time we graduate.
Today in health class we talked about transgenderism, I was the only one who seemed to have a clear understanding of what it was, lol. Anyways, it got into a discussion about homosexuality. I've been planing on coming out in health class in our upcoming unit on homosexuality and i nearly came out today except i wasn't called on. I was really nervous and shaking and freezing the whole time.
"the definition of "homophobia" is the irrational fear that 3 fags will break into you home and redecorate"
"Grace, who's five, has a friend over and I hear her say to her friend, "let's pretend we're gay" The friend goes, "What's gay?" And grace says, "Gay is when 2 girls get together, dance, and have fun."
i really want to be out, it's starting to drive me insane, no not really, but it's annoying. I keep telling myself that this week i'll start, i'll just stop trying to hide it and i'll be out, but thus far (in the months i've been doing this) i've actualy told 3 people who i wouldn't have otherwise told.
i found this website that has lots of gay pride jewlery. I'm going to get a double venus dogtag. It'll be the first pride thing that i've ever owned so i'm excited.
I havn't been on here in several months, i didn't really feel the need to write anything after coming out at camp, anyways, latly I've had this strange urge to come back to oasis, so here I am. Anyways, lots has happened
I got the first season of buffy the vampire slayer on DVD and I love it. It's so funny. I've watched five episodes today with my dad who also loves it. A book was made out of it which was also really good but in a VERY different way.
This is going to be yet another of my extreemly long journal entries that covers a million topics. Each topic will get its own paragraph so feel free to skip around and not read the whole thing.
I came back from camp yesterday. I was there for 4 weeks. It went REALLY well!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
I'm leaving for camp tomorrow. I'll be there for 4 weeks. I'm going to come out at camp. There will probably be some people who won't like me because of that but I'm sick and tired of living a lie. I know that sounds overdramatic, but everyone at my camp is so open that if you hide one little thing from anyone it ruins the summer. You have to go to the camp to expirience it.