First off, I'd like to say that I am proud to be an American. I am glad that Barack Obama will be our next president.
And at the same time, I am very sad to hear that bans/amendments/definition things on gay marriage have been passed in several states. But this is just a little bump on the road. We'll persevere.
Now for something different.
I can't stop watching it.
It's Anita Bryant, an anti-gay rights activist from the 70's getting a pie to the face on TV.
I love AJ. So very much.
And now I'm not allowed to see him ever again b/c I came home "late" last night (9 PM, on a FUCKING SATURDAY) and my mother got all pissy because she doesn't like me going out to see AJ as it is (she reverted to her intolerant, bible thumping ways), and the fact that I was out "late" in the evil, sinful city only makes it worse.
things are kind of weirder (in a good way) now. like, my mom is actually beginning to ACCEPT my relationship with my bf.
I walked out on my mom yesterday and I went to my b/f's house for a few hours. so when I come home, she's like:
"If you ever disobey me again, and walk out like that, I'll tell your father, your sister, AND the priest."
So my current attitude is, "Bitch, go ahead and tell them. It's better than not being able to see my b/f."
I feel like I've had it with my mom.
She's not allowing me to see my boyfriend, because she knows that I'm confused, she knows deep down that I'm not gay and I will change, and allowing me to see my b/f hinders said change (that's my paraphrase of what she said).
So now I'm stuck here, under lock and key, b/c she refuses to listen to my side of the story.
I dunno what to do.
I had the best time with my boyfriend yesterday. I went over his house, and we went to these woods nearby, and we found this shack/clubhouse that had swastikas and had "white power" written on it. so my boyfriend took a roll of duck tape that was there in the shack and did all sorts of stuff with it.
...How could you do this to people?
I feel like my heart has been just torn to shreds and spat upon.
Okay, maybe not that bad, but I do feel pretty shitty.
I talked to my mom today, told her that I was not "confused", and that I now had a b/f.
And I honestly don't know how to react to what she said.
I started school last Thursday. It's been going pretty well, although I am going to get my classes changed, I want to drop one of my courses and pick up another (specifically, Digital Photography --> Chinese II). As far as the people at school, my class lost a few kids b/c they didn't finish summer school or they transferred. And this year's freshman class is... small.
Well, tomorrow is the first day of my last year of high school.
Surprisingly, I'm not incredibly anxious about it like I was with previous years. I guess b/c it's my last year in this hellhole of a school.
I hate how I have to write a 10 page paper on everything I learned in Chinese class last year and I only have a few weeks to do it. The fact that I found out about it last week makes it feel worse.
it's nearing the end of summer and GODDAMNIT I haven't done anything remotely interesting.
hey, wait a sec, wasn't this the general tone of my last journal?
well, um, anyway,
I'M GONNA GO WATCH INVADER ZIM. THEN MAKE BISCUITS. :DDDD
umm, don't ask about the title. it's a song by Mika Nakashima that I've been listening to non-stop. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGRTlNTMBms) o.0;
my head hurts. I've been thinking too much. mainly because school is on the horizon and I'm finally hit with the realization that:
-I'm a senior.
-I have to apply for college.
-I dunno what colleges to apply to.
why so serious~?
so today I saw The Dark Knight because peer pressure made me! :D it was good. unfortunately, I saw it with my parents. not exactly the best idea. my mom talks too much.
"OH MY GOD, THE JOKER IS SUCH A BAD MAN! WHY WOULD HE DO THAT?!"
"WAIT, WASN'T THAT GUY DEAD LIKE 20 MINUTES AGO?! ROFLOLMAO"
"HEATH LEDGER IS SO AMAZING! GOSH, WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE?!"