Ok first two weeks of school have been great, im tired and hurting because well the two weightlifting classes i have are killing me......uhg....
thats pretty much it other than ive been talking to my girl everynight :D
well before i was hoping my grandfather would live well he didnt he died not even two months ago then about 2 weeks ago my Nana passed away so yea ive lost two grandparents in less than 2 months, Kryss and me also broke up we did a while ago Claire no long speaks to me and well me and my EX Jessica the one i was with for almost 5 years are back together.
Heh well its my senior year(again) and well im more than likely going to do a Documentary on a Female to Males transexuals transition from comming out to SRS(Sex Reasignment Surgery). right now im going to trya dn get it comfined by my English teacher as a sutible topic, im ging to use the good old "Im trying to educate the world" excuse to get it approved.
Well about ready to hurt my EX, i dont like hurting women but all she is doing is telling Kryss lies about me and putting words in my mouth and the funny part about it is she is doing it WHILE i am on the phone with Kryss.
Ok well my day WAS going amazing...i woke up in a GREAT mood because of last night with kryss but today has just shit it all... no one wants to work with me in any of my classes in such a bloody outcast in this one horse town....i have maybe two people who associate with me...the rest just tollerate me...i want to go back to florida...im miserable.
heeheehee im floating on cloud nine right now last night while i was talking to Kryss i asked her if she hated me for what i did she told me "Hell no, i love you too much." then started stuttering and blushing telling me i didnt read that, made me feel good told me she still wants me around and still wants a relationship with me and well i love her but im not about ready to screw this up by tellin
Ive fucked up once again.....Well just before asking Kryss out i well....i took my Ex back (The one who had crushed me really bad, Claire) and well i asked Kryss out two nights ago and she had said yes well the next day i broke up with Claire because well i dont love her like that i love her like i would a little sister, Claire went of the deep end and contacted Kryss but not before i told Kryss w
I asked Kryss out!!!!!! SHE SAID YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Is floating on cloud 9*
Ok im pretty much screwed...im failing out of school and my life is falling apart right before my eyes, i CAN NOT drop out as i planned because Kryss will hunt my ass down and kick it to australia and my father will more than likely have me sitting in a little box 6 feet under the surface of the earth, or knowing him he will probably have me cremated and placed in a glass case that says "FAILURE I
Ok so what do you do when your still in love with your ex, who not only crushed your heart but your pride, but are also deeply in love with some one else???
Ok so there is this girl i like...ok not like LOVE im in love with her. we met at a drill meet two years ago and lost contact but found eachother online a couple weeks ago.
Ano oka no mukou ishidatami no michi ni ukabu hidamari to anata no suki na piano no oto
Arifureta hibi no dekigoto ga itsumademo kono oto ni yadoru
Kasa ga naku hi mo tsukimichiru hi mo futari deatta hi no koto mo
Ikiteiru koto nagareteiru chi wo kodou wo kikasetekure
I wish...heaven aitakute
Itsumademo aifureta hibi wo ayumu toki no yukue kono mama de isasete
I stood alone on a playground buzzing with children, the crowd formed around me. I didn’t know why I was singled out, something was wrong. I wasn’t like the other girls, but I became what they expected me to be, I had to choice. Nature “helped” things along. Nature is cruel like that. I remember sobbing uncontrollably when my breasts began to bud.