So I want to buy pride merchandise but I don't think I'll wear the stuff. I think I have to be out to wear rainbows. There are some really cute earrings out there tho. This hopefully will be a motivational tool to help me come out sooner. I want to do it before I turn 21 at least. That gives me about 8 months. That should be enough time. Then I can go to all the lesbian bars.
I want to come out so badly. Sometimes I feel as if I never will. I'm such a wimp. Everytime I think about it I want to cry. I want to tell my roommate the most. She and I have lived together for about eight months. She's straight and I think she's a lesbianphobe. She says she's not homophobic but I think she is.