I know, it's a weird thing to come out of lurker-dom about, but I haven't seen him around in forever.
On a similar note, if he's not around, do we have anyone serving in something like a moderator position? (i.e. delete spammers and/or occasionally step in if someone starts making flagrant personal attacks? We don't seem to need much of either of those things around here, but every so often...)
If anyone is interested, I've decided I need to take a break from Oasis.
My life is stressful right now. I have a vast number of big midterm projects due this week, a good friend recently shut me out of her life (though I mostly blame myself), and I've been fighting through alternating spells of feeling rotten and depressed and being OK. I don't tend to post journals about this stuff very often — maybe I'm just not good at posting the inner workings of my mind on a public internet forum — but that's what's been going on.
I set my alarm for right around now because I need to study for a test I forgot about. That was truly the only reason. I'm still stressed about that, really; and it's been a very rough week for me.
Have been just as freaked and worried as everyone else over the last day's events on Oasis.
Yet, I awoke with the sudden conviction that everything is going to be all right. I don't know why; I just can't shake the feeling right now.
Thought I'd post while the feeling lasts.
Am very glad to see that WantsOut has posted today.
So, to cut to the relevant part of the conversation, it turns out B has a boyfriend.
Proceeding with caution was a good idea... just as happy to have found out she wasn't a gf prospect BEFORE I said anything to her about crushing on her.
I went to a concert, knowing B was working backstage, and she was happy to see me and gave me a ride home afterward. Just us. I think we talked about how much we both love Christmas. She gave me another hug right before I got out of the car.
I'm probably still dreamy-eyed cuz I feel all swirly-whirly and happy inside. I'd forgotten crushes could feel so nice.
My high school used to have a fundraiser every year: this one club would sell carnations, to be sent to a fellow student of the buyer's choice, and the money would go to a hospital. The carnations were always delivered on Valentine's day. Some people sent them to friends, some to boyfriends/girlfriends. Some of the more popular kids would actually get multiple flowers.
...let's call her B. She's in my tech theater class and sits next to me a lot. Whenever we get out of class early I find her out in the theater lobby playing the piano. Once I put my hand on her shoulder and told her she was hopelessly predictable :-) and when she reached up and touched my hand it was like... all this warmth and energy passing between us. It was awesome.
Warning: this may sound silly.
So I posted an article about Prop 8 and a couple of those laws that passed in other states (like the adoption one in Arkansas) on my Facebook. A friend of mine (incidentally, the only person in my dorm I'm out to... but that's cuz she flat-out asked) commented on it, "I am sorry sweetie. But I am against Gay Marriage."
You know when you create a forum, there's a list of forum categories you can choose from? The default seems to be "none." But what happens to forums created with no category? I know they show up in the recent forums list, and probably in searches, but there doesn't seem to be a page that lists them.
I have no idea why this popped into my head to ask, but does anybody on this site happen to be straight? Just curious.
Good news #1: my college GSA organized a screening of "The Laramie Project" tonight. I've been wanting to see that, so you better believe I'm going. :-)
Disappointing news #1: while me and another girl tried to explain to my friend SB what said film is about, the other girl admitted to being "slightly homophobic." So is a guy who lives down the hall from me. But they're nice people... :-(
www.outproud.org <---- One of the first websites I visited when I started to think I wasn't straight. There's some good information there, especially on the brochures page. (I think there's a link to Oasis on there too.)
However, in the last few weeks I've been getting "server not found" errors from my web browser whenever I try to load a page from the Outproud site.
I just wondered if anyone else is having this problem and/or knows what's up: did the site go offline, or is my computer just being freaky?
We played this game a couple times in my summer acting program where we write down things most people won't know about us, then throw all the paper slips in a pile, draw them one at a time, and try to guess which is whose. I suppose it has been on my mind a little bit because I've been tempted to write down "I'm gay" both times.
To give the shortest explanation, I finally asked and learned that S does not return my crush. Somehow I was expecting that...
Our friendship appears to be relatively unscathed (if I may venture such an appraisal three days later), which I am glad about. I'm trying to hide disappointment now though, and frustration because I'm still attracted to her but have to stop hoping.
My state is one of those that has passed, of all things, a CONSTITUTIONAL AMENDMENT banning gay marriage. This happened a couple years ago, when I: a) was too young to vote, and b) did not know I was gay. Though I do remember wishing I could go to a rally in opposition to said amendment. (I was afraid to ask my mom about it. No idea what she thinks of LGBTQ people...)