Today was our valentine's day dance. People were trying to set me and this girl up, which didn't really work :(
Also, on my previous post, I mentioned a one and a half year goal. I don't know what I was thinking; one and a half years seems pretty long. I'll probably tell him a lot earlier.
So the field trip was really awesome.
Really really awesome.
58 hours with S. Also, the rooms we slept in were really, really, small. All the better. I think I'm better friends with him now, but that might just be me being delusional, as I am sometimes.
I guess I've always been a person to be close to everyone you know, and I like giving hugs and stuff so it doesn't seem weird to anyone that I hug S. a lot, which is good :3
I now have a goal. By the end of 2010, I have to tell him. One and a half years.
I GET 2 NIGHTS AND 3 DAYS TO BE WITH S.
I also get to watch him sleep.
We're having an overnight trip.
Since its multi-class, I have a chance of getting the same room as S.
A family friend is here.
Apparently I was 3 last time I saw him.
I don't think he likes me very much.
Oh, did I mention how hot he is?
I guess this is what would be described as "lovesickness", what's happening to me. It's just terrible. I'm constantly thinking about him; even while doing schoolwork, studying, playing, trying to sleep, my thoughts constantly drift towards S. And then I'm just left with a feeling of sadness. It's completely overwhelming, to the point where I find it insanely hard just to keep my composure.
Earlier I said that I thought I was over S.
I WAS WRONG.
SO COMPLETELY WRONG.
My life is now more complicated. Once again.
Life isn't better.
I've been noticing guys more and more, and it drives me crazy how they're probably not gay, and that I'd have no chance.
I wish there was some kind of way to tell immediately.
I mean, would it be possible?
Also scared to death of the LHC.
I don't care about why gravity is weak,
or why there's more matter than antimatter;
Something random about myself...
One of my biggest fears in murky water. The lack of not being able to see around you, and the general unknown of deep-water life.
I noticed this, probably, when I was smaller and playing Zelda 64 .
The water temple creeped me out.
My biggest fear is death.
So school started on the 2nd
It was a happy day; I met all kinds of people I'd missed.
I'm in the same class as my best friends, I got the locker right outside my class, My teacher marks easily etc.
And, seeing S., I guess I'm over him.
He doesn't seem special or perfect or anything.
Just not important anymore.
It's been hard to find time to post recently.
Hope to have a great year
"He just fell hard while riding his bike, that's all," Karen, 26 years old, explains to the doctor. She's holding her eight-year-old son, Daniel, by his hand tightly. His left arm has a hairline fracture, and is in a sling. Daniel remains quiet as his mother talks about him always falling, always dropping things, always getting into school fights.
Finally passed >.>
It was so hard supporting that stupid 10 pound brick.
Apparently I've got to support a 20 pound brick next course >.>
Only 5 more courses + 4 years till I can make money off of this.
Wondering though, Should I take life guarding or instructing?
A lot's happened since I last posted.
After my last post, I finally went to pick up my parts; It took a day to build my computer, which didn't work, and then the rest of the week to figure out I missed the LPT cable >.>
This computer's a lot faster, and has better internet connection, Hooray!
After that I headed off to summer camp.
I know I said I'd have a class about now, but it was really vague for what I signed up for- when I got there, turns out it was remedial English, so I'm not going there anymore, hooray!
So anyway, back to the guy I was talking about yesterday (I'll refer to him as J), he's 2 years older than me, and probably the person that made me firmly recognize my sexuality.
So today was Canada day.
It was fun.
We went out to eat and then went to this big town-wide event
There were fireworks at 10:00, I got there at 8:30, so for and hour and a half I walked around.
There were cheap fairground rides, didn't go on many.
I saw a bunch of people there I knew
Including the hawt Gr8 that i mentioned a couple of entries ago.