((Ok, so its another almost peom thingy.))
Tell me why
Why should I care that you're fucking her?
You and I were never a thing
We were never more than what we were.
But we weren't always like this
Because we weren't always just ripping at eachother's belts
Because you used to kiss me gently under the mistletoe
Because you used to care about me
And now we just call at three am
Ok, what really pisses me off is that I have the perfect title for this entry. But it was already used by someone else. Thanks The_Loser. Lol, its cool, you had it first. Anyway. The title I would have used is 'Its Just a Phase' because I'm pissed at my dad.
So I'm at the start of a oasis frenzy. Its been so long since I've been able to post that now I'm posting like crazy. So about a week and a half ago I got really sick. I mean puke your guts out, horribly sick. My two year old sister got it, and gave it to Sheri (step mother) and my brother either got it from her or from school, an then he gave it to me.
My laptop isn't actually fixed yet. But my mom's is back, and since she broke mine, she is letting me use hers. Its shocking how much hasn't happened since I last posted. So C and I are, well I don't really know. Well, I don't really care anymore. We're sort of friends again. I don't know.
So this is the longest I haven't been on oasis, and not been out of town since I joined. Its just my luck that my mom would break my computer right when everyhting starts to happen. She didn't mean to, I find I have to put that because my friend thought my mom had like perposfully killed my computr to spite me. No, she tripped over the cord, and now it can't charge.
So yeah, C came to my school after school today. Like, shit?
So I wrote out this whole long thing, and some how my computer lost all of it. All of it!!
So I'm back at school now, and I finally got to see my friends again. Lunch just isn't long enough. I haven't gotten to see them since last friday. So I was really excited to see them. And I loved talking to them, but it just didn't last very long. I had my voice lesson, so I couldn't stay after school and hangout with them at the bike racks like I normally do. I really wish I had been able to.
So I'm back. I feel like I've been living someone else's life. How weird is that?
I'm going out of town! Yeah! I think. Anyway, I'm kinda happy I'm leaving, but it'll be the rest of my break, and I won't be able to get on here for ay of it. Which makes me sad. Uh oh, I think I may be addicted to oasis. Eeep. I don't think I've gone a day without checking it, and probably posting in a while. Well, other than when I have to. But now, I think I'll be going into withdrawal. Eep!!
I hate myself. I am a fucking bitch. i deserve to be shot. SO you know how I found out that one of my friends has started cutting, well now I just found out that my ex-girlfriend was belimic for a bit. She probably still would be, if it weren't for one of our friends, she probably would still be. You want to know the worst part?
I can't cry. I can't. Theres just so much right now. I feel this emptyness inside. I feel it, but I'm not sure if it hurts. It kind of just is. Does that make sense?
I am sick and tired of straight sites!!! SICK AND TIRED!!!! What the hell??
Okay, I'm going to keep this short. I haven't posted in a really long time. Which sucks. This week is school brak for the week, so that is amazing. I stayed in bed all day yesterday. I'm not even kidding. I'll probably try to do stuff today, but no promises. I feel sort of off right now. Like, theres this veil of cotton between me and the rest of the world.
So I went to Twilight last nght. It was amazing. I've seen alot of movies, but this is the only one that has been able to actually make me want my life to end after the first ten minutes. That there is impresive. I think that the tackiest part was that the author of the book was actually in the movie. Like what the fuck? Seriously?