i feel guilty for being jealous of my friend, for she is dating my second biggest crush that ive liked for as long as i was atracted to people. like im not crazy jealous, just a slight sense of i-was-here-first. but i feel guilty because of the fact that i should be happy my two friends are happy toghether, and it isnt like he was ever going to like me in that ways anyhow. sometimes i hate my feelings.
wonderful white pure lovlet cold snow :D
in other news, my life is boring and nothin has been happening to me.
oh wait, so yesterday, my friends were over, and there a couple, so they were making out all over my room. adn they made out on my bed, and i call foul, as even ive never made out on my bed.
should i really be so worrried about getting equel lgbt rights when there are problems like hunger and dieses and war? wouldnt my time be better focused on doing damage control for those things then getting equel rights? idk im just in an odd mood right now
its been forever since ive seen jeff on here...
well past. bet you guys thought i was gonna make some future pun didnt you :) nope im not some freaky time travler. i was just reading through this old story i wrote. i couldnt get through the first 10 pages. such deppressing bullshit. not that what im working on now isnt...but at least i can struggle through it. this thing i made last year, idk why my friend carlee loved it so much. 46 pages of drama, cliches, and an atempt at tragedy. of course if someone else had made it i would have eaten it up. but thats besdie the point.
yep. im eating like way more food then i should have to andim still starving
maybe ill get lucky and im on a growth spurt.
i cant stop working matrix quotes into conversations.
"Morpheus: I imagine that right now, you're feeling a bit like Alice. Hmm? Tumbling down the rabbit hole?
Neo: You could say that.
Morpheus: I see it in your eyes. You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up. Ironically, that's not far from the truth. Do you believe in fate, Neo?
Morpheus: Why not?
Neo: Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life.
today is the fourth time that a boy i was going go on a date with cancelled. at least the other times the guys had good reasons. this guy just changed his mind and got girlfriiend. great...
today is the day i was legaly adopted :)
sometimes i wonder about my biological perants, where they are and what they are doing. that dosnt mean i wish i was there really. i love my perants to much for that. but i still wonder about my biological pernats, and especialy if i have sibilings.
in current mode, i love strategy games to much :) they are pretty fricken EPIC.
also i has a new straight guy crush. hes nice, and my buddy. im lucky cause hell randomly snuggle me.
thats literally all ive done the last few days is complain to my friends about how i cant find a boy. arnt i productive?
just finished my firt full week of school and thus far its...rather entertaining. plenty of eye candy :)
then felt extremly guilty?
you know what three things piss me off the most?
people that hate islam(islamaphobia?)
and gender stereotypes.
well what am i most pissed about today? ISLAMAPHOBIA(i hope i didnt make up a word) its so fucking....ugh dunno if any of you have heard of the mosque thing in NY. so relitivly close to the spot the twin towers stodd, some reliogous folk wanted to build a church on a lot they purcahsed. all smiley and whatnot right? but wait, what do you say, MUSLIMS! NOOOOOO.
highschool is being epic thus far. im making all sorts of buds and everyone is cool with my queerity. :) and guess who has a DATE the 26th!? me and swimmerguy(chad) :D hes such a sweety :) yes you chadling. i bought a RAINBOW HAT today. i love it :) and a new celtic CD (yeah i know, omg you didnt buy of itunes?)
first day of highschool.