I haven't written here anything in a long time. I was too depressed for a long time to do practically anything, and yeaah. I guess I still am but now I started to go to this therapy thingy.. Even though it's not helping really and I only get to go there 5 times, and if it doesn't help, then they're gonna put me into this... young people psychiatric thingy. Or whatever. I dunno. But it helps to think that I can actually get help.
Sooo I was spending the night at a friend's house and I had forgotten to tell Meghan I was going to be unavailable, and then she called me but the fucking phone card didn't let us talk properly so there I was, 8am, scared as fuck for what might have happened. So I took my scooter and drove all the way back to my house aaand called her. So yeaah, it was all fine in the end, and I read Winnie-the-Pooh to her and yeaaah..
Or not. It's not that cold yet.
So in about 2 hours I should be getting on my way to Sea-Tac airport. The flight to JFK leaves at like 7.15 but I need to be there like wayyy too early x_x I just decided not to go to sleep, and then sleep the little over 8 hours that it takes to fly from NYC to Helsinki.
Well, I'm new here. I've been melting down for about two weeks, every night, and having nightmares when I'm finally asleep. Well, more than two weeks. The reason for that is that I'm going to leave the country in like 4 days, and I have a girlfriend here..
I'm going back to Finland, and it's really exciting having been away for almost a year, but still.. She's the only one that seems to matter nowadays. I'd be happy if I could just take her with me. Or stay here. But not be in America, cuz this sucks. But it's not going to happen. Well, it is, in three years.