God, I'm such a douchebag...
Like I go to school, and I just find people I just hate so much...
Like honestly, at my lunch table, there were like these girls talking about celebrities and like Kim Kardashian shit. And like, I'm so uninterested in that shit, you can't even believe it. My life interests me plenty, why the fuck do I need to observe the mundane goings-on of some stupid bitch or another to find interest in life?
Seriously, that gives me kinda a boner.
I've actually considered joining our nearby Mormon church. Not because I'd actually like start believing in God or thinking Joseph Smith was a prophet or something, nor stop jacking off, watching porn sometimes, drinking caffeine, using profanity or blasphemy, fucking when I can get it, nor making lewd references to my friends moms...
Tell me that's not fucking terrifying.
I mean, they've gone off the deep end. They ran out of money to build this hotel, so it was topped out, but the exterior wasn't finished, so it was just ugly concrete.
The government was so embarrassed by it, they denied its existence for almost 20 years...
Sitting right there, big and ugly.
They only acknowledged its existence a few years ago when construction resumed...
I mean, North Korea is fucking insane.
Look at this thing from their official website:
Well, I posted this on my fb, so I guess there's no reason to retype it...
You know, the more and more I think about it, it seems like in all of history, in all civilizations, all governments have been oligarchies, no matter what else they call themselves, and all else is just a cover for that, the fundamental ruling caste buttfucking everyone else.
While the objectives are the same, the methods are all different, as in North Korea, they do it by starving and crushing the working class into such absolute penury they have no time to focus on what the government's doing.
So, over this wonderful Spring Break, I've been in Scotland. We visited there cause my brother is studying there now for his college.
Rush Limbaugh, on drugs, 1995:
"What this says to me is that too many whites are getting away with drug use. Too many whites are getting away with drug sales. Too many whites are getting away with trafficking in this stuff. The answer to this disparity is not to start letting people out of jail because we're not putting others in jail who are breaking the law. The answer is to go out and find the ones who are getting away with it, convict them and send them up the river, too."
Ah, the rain.
Is there anything finer?
Basically, by a good measure my most interesting experience today, was I was looking out the window, and it was raining outside.
Fucking love the rain, it's so comforting to me, so nice.
But so, I'm standing there looking out at it, and I was thinking you know, one of the nice things about modern society is that you can get wet and cold, and be able to swiftly dry off and warm up...
I fucking love the rain, and here I am inside doing nothing, watching it.
First, quickly, a few things.
I don't know why, but CAG is ignoring me. Sort of like, seeming to observe from a distance, but avoiding talking to me. Whatever, I guess...
Uh, fuck fuck fuck, not much else.
Got 2 new coffee mugs for my birthday, as well as a gift card to Starbucks. See, I like Starbucks, it's just so motherfucking expensive, I can't get too used to it, or it'll rape me.
Well well, it r mah birfdai.
I can legally fuck anyone now, I guess.
Except anyone even a day younger than me now, I guess...
Anyway, I had a litany of topics I wanted to talk about, now it'll be just as many as I can remember.
It kinda sucks, it seems like Western Society, mostly from Christianity, has had some weird taboo on sex for a long time, and it's weird.
Like, why wouldn't they have anything against fat people?
I mean, food and sex, both necessary for our survival, but overindulging in food will kill you while overindulging in sex won't, it'll feel great.
So fucking tired.
And Shelby, I'm sorry. You never really know what to say in these situations...
Just wanted you to know I love you, you're fucking awesome.
In other news...
Today, I swear, I swear, CAG, took a slightly unnecessary and inconvenient route to brush by me, I swear.
Fuck me, I'm obsessing.
Stop it. I feel like Kreacher now or something, I just wanna start beating myself.
It seems as if in all of our lives there's involved a rather odd little man we're unaware of.
His name is the Great Debt Collector, and he doesn't deal in money, he deals in life.
He's a rather odd debt collector, as well as a rather cruel one quite often.
The problem is, he makes all sorts of debts to people without telling them that they are indeed debts.
From what I've seen, this is pretty sad. From what I know about the case, Dharun is certainly quite a bit of a dick, and I doubt I'd like the guy, but I don't think 10 years in prison is exactly the thing for him...
That's pretty harsh.
I can't know, but I think Tyler Clementi was just a bit of an eccentric kid who committed suicide for private reasons.
I think part of the problem with being a teenager is that you're growing up and changing too fast...
Like it seems like I know, I understand so many more things than I did just a year, six months ago. When I look back at my previous journals, it always happens where I totally hate the me from 2 years ago, and still kinda dislike the me from even a few fucking months ago.
I mean, just fucking months ago, I dislike myself.
Relationships last just months or weeks. Not that I've had too many of those to deal with.