Oh fuck me. I haven't watched any of the current season of Survivor until now, but then I decided I would...
And I fucking hate nearly everyone on the show. I mean, the entire tribe of girls is composed of almost exclusively bitches, I hate almost all of them, maybe one I found standable.
And in the guys, I really liked that guy Bill, but that fucking bitch Colton, just Gawd.
I mean, he's so obviously so discriminatory, and such a fucking dickwipe, I haven't found one thing I like about him.
So so so, just got back from an orchestra trip.
How was it, you say?
Meh. Okay. It's a really weird trip, as timeline goes.
We left after school on Friday, drove all the way down to Oregon, stopping for dinner, then went to the hotel, spent the night there, then got up in the morning, went to this orchestra competition thing for most of the day, then left after dinner for home, got here about 1:30 AM, this morning, I guess...
And orchestra's fine, you know, I have nothing against string music.
I just realized that...
My last baby tooth is finally loose. And getting looser and looser.
I don't know why I've kept it so freakishly long... But I've decided I'm going to do my absolute best to try to keep it in my head until my birthday in 2 and a half weeks, just so I can say I still had it at my 16th birthday...
My God, I just realized, isn't Hitler like the man most associated with one thing, more than anyone else ever?
Fucking brilliant. Probably my favorite Barrett tune there ever was, that and Jugband Blues...
Really, really important.
One of the saddest videos about anything I've ever seen. When I saw this in the actual movie, I actually cried.
This song sounds about as organized as my thoughts feel right now.
This is one uncomfortable video to watch:
I remember watching news reports about the fall of Enron, but I don't remember 9/11, even though that was only like 2 months before...
That is weird... I guess I can't control my memory...
Anyway, I'm reading a book about that scandal thing now, and it keeps getting weirder and weirder.
I mean, first they started legitimate, then got a little sleazy, then layered on the sleaze more and more until finally it became illegal at some point, they're not really sure where.
The problem at that point was they didn't know when their business practices went from sleazy to illegal.
I'll talk about that vid in a sec.
Such a calming song...
I think I need to find a purpose in life soon. Perhaps I just haven't been hedonist enough.
Fuck it. I can't fucking concentrate.
I don't know what to do...
I had so many nightmares recently, my first in a while. I forgot how terrible those are, how terrified they leave you, how you can't fucking get to sleep anymore, how everything around you just terrifies you.
Seriously, I can't do fucking anything right now, I'm out of my mind.