Not much time to say more than that.
But yeah, shitty day of shit. I'll talk more tomorrow...
I think it's really weird when people associate by the things they choose not to do.
First, our good friend Wikipedia:
A theory that homophobia is a result of latent homosexuality was put forth in the late 20th century. A 1996 study conducted at the University of Georgia by Henry Adams, Lester Wright Jr., and Bethany Lohr indicates that a number of homophobic males exhibit latent homosexuality. The research was done on 64 heterosexual men who admitted negative affect toward homosexual individuals. They were assigned to groups on the basis of their scores on the Index of Homophobia (W. W. Hudson & W. A. Ricketts, 1980). The groups did not differ in aggression.
Last night was, oh my God...
I felt like I was going motherfucking insane.
So, well, after a buncha shit happened, me and my family went to Leavenworth yesterday, a little mountain tourist village near us that has the best Christmas gifts, and while driving back I realized I was feeling sick. I was kinda pissed off.
Because, frankly, I would much rather go to school than stay home.
or are more than half of the people on Youtube liberal atheists?
Cause it seems like whenever I find some video that's religious, or trashing on gays or something, there's always some liberal or an atheist there with a top-rated comment.
I dunno :P
Uh, I was going to write a dramatic journal about some shit, but I've decided now that I don't have the energy, so I'll just dryly describe what's happened since last time.
Uh, I had a swim meet yesterday. I did okay, I guess.
Not much interesting.
But, after I got home, a lot of interesting things happened.
I was going to post a journal, but I waited too long, then took a shower, and my computer shuts off at 11.
So, all I'm going to say is that I feel proud and innovative now, because my new greeting that I invented a few days ago (Where you meet someone and you scream DAMN IT, YOU SKANKY FUCK(ER)!!!!! at the top of your lungs at them) is now all the rage on the swim team, everyone is using it.
I feel so cool.
That is all.
First, a very brief news. Nothing to report, except the little contact I had with CAG today, which consisted of the teacher getting people handing assignments back, and then him being chosen, and then just handing out assignments to everyone, except for me he made a little joke "Hey, have you seen this guy Chad?" when handing back one of my assignments, I was just like "Oh ya, I love that guy!".
I've recently in the past few weeks been discovering Pink Floyd. And I've heard a lot of their songs before and liked them, but now, listening to whole albums at one time, I'm blown away by the sheer amazingness.
I mean, I'm used to music coming in distinct segments that are sometimes pretty short, 3 minutes or less, and sometimes pretty long, like 8 or 9 minutes.
But with like Metallica, who I love, all you get is distinct pieces of music, distinct pieces of passion, there's a line where one ends and one begins.
So, in the past I forget how much time, in my thinking I've been trying to consider everything, all topics, without all of the biases we're all born with, the arbitrary cultural mess we all have to deal with.
Uh, past few days, I went to my great-uncle's house for thanksgiving, like we always do. Very nice. Met a lot of family I didn't know I had, cause most of the people there are his children and grandchildren and such, and not of my grandmother, his sister.
Uh, yeah, CAG is positively awful at texting. See, he warned me about this when I got his number on Tuesday, but I wasn't sure about how much he was telling the truth. Basically, he never ever replies. I can't text him too much, as I'm basically hedging my bets, I don't want him to get creeped out, if he is indeed simply being friendly.
I guess I'll wait until tomorrow to use it though, I don't want to seem too needy...
So yeah, I got CAG's number, all it took was a few seconds, kinda awkward, like one of my friends who was next to me was like wait why do you want his number? and I said my usual response to any question like that I don't feel like answering, I like to ask, why not?.
So cute, he is. His name is well chosen :P
My wrist with the cyst on it hurts more now, I can barely type. Ow.
Okay day. I guess. I was really tired the whole fucking time. And I was totally about to get CAG's number right before he just walks away and I'm like WOW, FUCK IT.
I swear I need to get it before the weekend. He's so cute :P
So, nothing much happened, and then swimming, and I was fucking tired, then got home and did not much else, then I tried making ableskivers and failed miserably. Bisquick really is no substitute for cinnamon eggnog mix or just plain ableskiver mix for making ableskivers. Doesn't work.
Well, first, something interesting, Cute Asian Guy, or now, CAG as I guess he's known, today put his hand on my shoulder and said "you're looking handsome today". Fuck, I wish I was quicker on my feet, I don't really even know what to do when a cute guy does that randomly. It was really sexy though.
Anyway, I saw something today, and it confused me. It really confused me.
Ok, so first, what I just did.
Well, background, I came out to many people in 8th grade, my entire close friends circle, at least.
But, when I got into high school, I made a lot of new friends, and I lacked the courage to come out to them outright, considering especially most of them were guys.
And so, I've slowly become more and more open about it, but I'm pretty sure not everyone's getting the message. And I was getting sick of it...