sometimes i just want to gut myself
guess what guys
SOMEONE TOOK MICHELLE TO HOMECOMING OH YES
IT WAS ME
So friday night after the football game, the whole show band goes to a local italian food joint and hangs out. So I bought us dinner and then c: she asked me to go to Homecoming with her!
Okay so I'm really tired, so I'm gonna copy/paste my chat block chunk of data to read from if you want to know what happened. It was... very good C:
ok so like a bunch of shit happened with the lady so things aren't great anymore
I don't know at the minute if I'll be unlazy enough to write about it
BUT FIRST OK guys I finally got a facebook so
if anyone wants to friend me or something idk http://www.facebook.com/shelby.noelle.79 here you go
So my first very real, very gay set of news might take a while to write but I'm thoroughly excited. You'll have to wait a moment though c:
Right now, I'm sitting at home eating breakfast and watching Harry Potter. But SHELBY! you might say, It's a school day!
Well, yes. I'm in Running Start, a college in the high school program. So as it is, I go to first period (orchestra) and then I come home and I"m done with school (until college starts on the 24th, then that's a whole 'nother story, but I'll get to that when it happens).
So, I finallllly have time to write things!
30 minute documentary... Pretty interesting!...
so today I had a horrible migraine all day
I get them rather often, at least once a week.
So.. tsk.. news!
My dad bought me a car! It's absolutely amazing actually, like, I'm so happy with it. It's a 2001 black jeep grand cherokee and it's gorgeous. It has a lot of small issues and one big engine issue, but dad got it for like 1/7 of the cost. He's a great mechanic though so he'll fix it up awesome c:
LOOK BETTER QUALITY THIS TIME
Anyways if you were just here for the hair, go ‘head and X out now
so first off- HAIRCUT!
SHITTY WEBCAM QUALITY PICS GO
I love my haircut. It's very short and shaved on the back and sides, and the bangs are just POOF. I basically schmear styling clay/gel on it and tousle it and it's all good to go c: or just wake up and let the bedhead fly.
Anyways- My life has been really great!!!! a few possible new love interests, but nothing serious or permanent, AWESOME TIMES with a few of my close, older friends :) and guard is starting up, too!
We find it difficult to understand that other people are human beings in the same way we are. We idealize them as gods, or dismiss them as animals
So I just finished rereading Paper Towns, by John Green. I haven't read it in years, and I always love his books. They get me thinking.
For any who have not read the book, and some who have, it is not a love story- Not romantic love, at least. Despite it involving Quentin, the main character, being in love with Margo Roth Speigleman, the main lesson of the book is this-
BUT ABOUT WHAT, I DO NOT KNOW
today I went shopping, bought some new shorts for band camp and POKEMON SHIRTS!
they're kinda lame b/c they're just pikachu, but egh. Any pokemon shirt is good for me c:
I have been handling the breakup well, mostly! c: In fact, I have a NEW BOYTHING
we've got a bromance. He's my brofriend.
really we're both too fukken awkward to make the relationship any sort of feelsy on a regular basis so we like call each other dude and be dicks to people and play video games
that is our relationship so far
I like it
My dad is awesome.
Sometimes he's really stubborn and old-fashioned and doesn't really know how to handle me crying and stuff, but mostly, my dad is really fair.
I have no idea sometimes how he stands being married to mom when she's all cranky, though... He's a trooper. He's a good guy yaknow?
So, basically. The ex.
I don't wanna get too wordy and emotional, so I'll bulletpoint.
-is doing exactly what he did last year
-is the angstmaster flex
-so he dumps me again
-I am happy
-he is angsty
-can't even sit at the same lunch table as me with his best friends there
-can't you just ignore me
-guess I was right
So honestly, I'm not THAT upset about the breakup, 'cause I know what's going on... same as last year.
Kid's got so many damn emotions, he really needs to sort them out.
so I got dumped, or attempted dumped today.
over a stupid, stupid, stupid!!!!! reason.
now school will be lonely and fuckall.
he is so complicated and yet wonderful at the same time and all i want is things to be okay, to be okay again, and for him to say he loves me like he did today and tell me he loves my tiny baby hands
everything was fine so soon ago
Okay! So hey guys. I'm up late with another rousing case of my nighttime anxiety about stupid things.
Anyways, I have an odd curiosity towards the supernatural, but reading about it fucks me over in the sleep department. So.. while I'm up... Anyone have any creepy stories? Things you never figured out that happened when you were little?
I have a few but they're kinda silly, not worth telling. My friend remembers some little things, like laying down to take a nap on a bed where there was a shelf right across, and waking up and all the things were rearranged but nobody moved them.
I am a thankful child.
I am thankful I can sit in a tub of artificially heated water every day and relax my sore, first-world-barely-worked-muscles; enough water wasted every day to keep someone hydrated for months-
I am thankful I return to a stable house with working plumbing so I can shit without worrying about getting cholera from our water supply, and I can wash our clothes, hands, dishes, etc-