So last night around 2 AM, my sister's fiancee had a seizure in his sleep and had to be taken to the emergency room.
It was really scary. I've never had anything that scary happen before. He's thankfully doing alright, but the doctors don't know why he had the seizure yet and are doing tons of tests on him.
My mom and I drove to the hospital last night when it happened to see him, and he just looked like a mess :( When I got home, it was like 4 AM. I had physical therapy this morning at 10. So I'm really tired.
I mean, I told him I had to go do something, and then he figured out what I was up to, BUT I CHANGED THE SUBJECT.
AND HE BROUGHT IT BACK TO THAT.
Anyways, yes. Jbro is just... *shakes head* I don't even know anymore. If he's just being playful, it's a damn weird way of doing it cause he never cared before about that stuff.
Sorry I'ven't been posting much lately, guys XP
I've been such a sloth! Mom woke me up early today and we went out to go shooooppingggg :D
I bought three books :) One is called This Is Your Brain On Music and I <3 <3 <3 <3 it.
In fact, I wanna share a quote with you that ABSOLUTELY AMAZES ME
"Contrary to the old, simplistic notion that art and music are processed in the right hemisphere of our brains, with language and mathematics in the left, recent findings from my laboratory and those of my colleagues are showing us that music is distributed throughout the brain.
Oasis, help me out. I'm having super horrible headaches lately. What's a good thing to help it feel better? It's driving me nuts.
See, growing up, my mother's always been absent from my life emotionally.
She has really bad anger issues that were imparted into my sister, which is why my sister used to beat me.
But, me and my sister have learned to be different. While my mother is reactive, we aim to be proactive.
The difference is that, being reactive, you "react" to situations instead of aiming to improve them. You think things happen to YOU, not just happen. You think everything is everyone else's fault. You're easily put-off by people when they oppose you, or say something you don't like.
Your arguing is so gay.
ANYWAYS I have been such a lazy asshole and haven't written journals even though AWESOME things have happened.
...And I left this journal open all day and didn't write a damn thing so I guess that means I'll end it here.
Anyone going anywhere cool for summer?
OH MY GOD GUYS
But I have a completely legitimate journal to write with lots of questions.
You guys all know what Otaku's/Otherkin are, right?
People who believe that they're REALLY just an animal or a video game/movie/book/anime character on the inside.
That they're in the wrong body.
Oftentimes they're given slack for thinking that they're a wolf/Mario/Naruto reincarnated, because, what the hell... You're human!
But how is this really any different than Transgender/Genderqueers?
My private lesson's teacher says my viola is too small- not FOR me, but in general. The tone quality of it is bad, and combined with my cheap-ass $20 bow, I have to redo all of it to sound better or even IMPROVE from here on out.
Problem is, a new bow that'd be good enough? 100-200 dollars.
FOR THE BOW ITSELF.
My strings are 100 dollars, so like... Shit, man. My mom got pissed. She was acting like it was way too expensive.
Well, if it was sports, you'd have been like "yeah, that's fine!" in a freaking heartbeat.
I GOT SECOND CHAIR IN PS2
WHICH MAKES ME SO HAPPY
GOD YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS <33333333333333333333333
I should have been first, but the guy who beat me ALWAYS beats me :P I think it's cause he's a good leader. But now his ego will be OVER NINE THOUSAAAAAAAAND! and I'm gonna get so pissed off XD
Also, wow. I feel soooo good right now.
Good music on, playing a little guitar, and just relaxing. No, the bleeding's getting worse, but shucks. Good day.
Tried to text J-man a little today...
WOW WAS HE PISSY :P
and I just told him like
Everytime I start this journal, I could only get the title out. It's going to be so emo and lame...
And then I stopped and I thought: No, that's really it. That's all I need to say.
But there's stuff behind it. A meaning. A purpose. And I know I gotta force my fingers to click on the keys until it all comes out and I can feel better about it. It literally is throwing up my emotions on the page.
I feel horrible. Not just emotionally, but physically. I feel like all of my meat and fat and skin are just falling off my bones.
So I'm still bleeding.
and it's like, a liiiittle trickle, but I am so damn pissed. It's like, pointless to wear anything, but then I still smell like blood and it's groooooss!
Maybe I have an ectopic pregnancy :P
Had a private conversation with the J-man today, exboyfriend. I'm just gonna go with J-man. It's easier and more casual.
I feel better but worse. I feel really guilty and bad about some stuff.
I just want school to end so I can stay at home and wait for him to be okay to talk to me again. I don't want to have to SEE what I'm missing, you know?
GLaDOS sounds so hot. Her voice makes me weak in the knees ;D Been playing it all day :)
T-rex came over yesterday, and had a lot of fun, I think. It was pretty great. She asked me where my viola was so we could teach her (Me and KT) and I was like "Oh it's in the closet, I'm sure you know your way around in there" and KT MISSED IT AND I WAS LIKE, NOOO, THAT WAS PERFECT.
anyways just an update.
Don't miss me while I'm gone.
OMG SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH MY BODY D:
Or at least with my pills :P
I take birth control because my period is really heavy and the doctors told me they didn't want me to become anemic. It would usually last a week to two weeks before.
Well, I forgot to take a few pills this week and it started up. No biggie, took the ones I missed!
...My period is still going. Strong.
and it's been like, a week. I've ruined my pants and three pairs of underwear because it "stops" and I think "Yep, there we go!" and then BOOM MORE PERIOD.