fill that part in lol. i wanna see where this goes.
but anyways i want my own laptop. im tired of sharing with mom and gabriel, he got all pissed of at me for downloading THREE things. i mean i use them like everyday, ive used them before and i know im not downloading anything im not supposed to AND its supposed to be the family laptop (meaning it belongs to everybody), but according to him its not mine. mom was ok with me downloading those three things, as long as they didnt give the laptop viruses. :|.
im at the library listening to music cause i have math lab in like an hour XD. im gonna go get some lunch in like half an hour. me is hungry. ok.
yup. Never really thought of listening to him. Just wasn’t too curious you know? Got curious the other day and thought id give him a chance, never know……you know? Im like addicted. Oh god. And have you ever been addicted to a song and kinda hated it cause it’s just not you? e_e. I mean I like downloaded this effing song, and I kinda hate liking it. But I cant help it. And it’s not NeverShoutNever. I like his music. Makes me feel kinda happy. Like jack johnson makes me feel. Or owl city even. Gonna try and wash my liking of that song with something else.
I’m really really bored. I got here half an hour early and I have nothing to do. I need to make effing friends. Gah. I hate not having anyone to talk to sometimes. Other times its nice, this isn’t one of those times. I’m hungry too. I should have ate something before I left. >.>. im bored.
im supposed to do p.e. 5 times a week for an hour each day.....ive skipped two days already which means i have to do like three hours on monday or four on tuesday :/. oh and i have to write a summary on a health article....two actually. :/. >.> im tired. this whole homeschooling thing is kinda weird and different. my main teacher person says i should be used to it in a couple weeks. :/. im bored and i should probly get some sleep cause i have to do history, english and p.e. tomorrow...... :P. all together its only about six things. but i get distracted and i space out.
about yesterday.......i feel better.
although i still feel ashamed at what i sent her, i honestly didnt mean any of it.
i just didnt know what to do, and then my hurt confused self got angry
and i kinda just.....yeah.
but it's ok now.
Feelings, stronger than they've ever been.
True love, found at last.
So far away, yet closer than ever,
She has found her love, once again.
After being heartbroken,
After feeling alone,
After all she's been through,
After so much anger,
After all of this and so much more;
She can finally feel at ease
Know that her love will be there.
Have someone to love.
Have someone love her.
Forever and ever
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May.
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of the heaven shines,
And often his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometimes declines,
By chance or by nature's changing course,untrimmed;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall Death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,
When in eternal lines time thou grow'st:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
i typed in the wrong address in the address bar......it took me to oasisjournal.com........ and at first i was like "whoa.....did they like change evrything?" then i read and i was like "oh... o_o;"
mom: "babe you used to be a whore when you were twenty."
gabe- "hahaha. yeah. whorrree."
mom: "you're my retired whore honey."
hehehe that was the convo at dinner tonight lolol.
lol. im downloading my previously lost music again. so im pretty happy :)
IN OTHER NEWS...... i have school tomorrow. my first day of semi-homeschooling *fake happy dance* lol. but first testing for about 4 hours for the next 2 days, cause all sophomores are required to take the hs exit exam (aka CAHSEE). :P.
im eating BISCUITS...well a BISCUIT........ ^_^
go to bed early tonight.....but i guess not. me and my stepdad were downloading music.....for about 3-4 hours :|
im gonna be tired tomorrow morning.....actually more like today lol.
oh and btw,i got a new thingy thing.....like my new pic? if you can see it >.>
night oasis :]
Ok so I walked into mom’s room all happy (don’t ask why ;]) and she tells me she was watching what she thought to be a nice program, but then turned “fucking stupid”. She was watching Rosie O'Donnell's "A Family Is a Family Is a Family", and she told me that they were just confusing those kids. See I get real pissed off when people talk like that for a lot of reasons. One of them being that I want two kids with Christina. If she talks like that about those people like that, then how the hell is she gonna talk about/to me?
grandma came over today.....her and mom are gossiping. is that how you spell that? idc. im realllly bored. nothing to do. nothing on tv. mom said i cant get on the phone til grandma leaves. :|. im gonna go try and finish watching Running Scared......
hahahahahahahahahhaha. nice huh?
it's not gonna work. i can feel it. i dont know why im wasting my time hoping for this to work out.
oh well cant let this get me down. gots to not worry about it and just have hope.