Do you really think you fixed you?
Do you think they could
I WON FREE PASSES TO OSHEAGA THIS WEEKEND
why is my life so amazing lol
today i went to my best friends house and we ate onion rings and ice cream floats
i think i'll start writing real journals again one school starts
who else died during that heat wave
i'm back home and quitting my job tomorrow...
back to making smoothis is 3 weeks yay
this journal sucks but i'm alive yall
i'm also paula deen
sunny days (except when i'm working D:)
the fact that school is starting in almost a month! (school = my vacation..)
is it sad that this is the most i could come up with at the top of my head in under a minute
still i'm happy though
wow my journaling sucks now i should become unhappy again...
the clothes i ordered from korea are here at long last!
just in time for me to go to new york, too.
I'm actually fucking happy.
My boyfriend and I have not broken up, we worked things out. We're making an effort on both of our parts to just work out on the issues that have been bothering us respectively.
I don't know, I just woke up one morning and I was sort of like...
Even if things don't work out, sooner or later I'll be with someone else, and he's just not the person for me. But if things work then it's going to be amazing and beautiful and everything I've been bitching about since I started writing here.
harold & maude
donnie darko (again aha)
requiem for a dream
black swan (again)
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
to watch :
american history x
memoirs of a geisha
the virgin suicides
kissing jessica stein
lost in translation
follow the prophet
on the outs
poor little rich girl
le grand voyage
there's more but yeah
lisa thinks she's hot shit 'cos she's a sociopath
come on girl do your best for me, come on hoe shake that ass for me.
i'll push you around and say you're no good.
pupils big and black like 3am
this feels good again
my last journal was a lie.
i am too unhappy, teenage for him, for anyone really. unworthy.
i only bring people pain, including myself.
i try so hard not to though.
i wish others would see that.
god, it's so hard.
to know that it's coming, that in a few days i know for almost fact he will say his real goodbyes.
i hate sleeping alone.
everything is ok now
feeling the loneliness where dreams used to be.
and then i thought,
i am not lonely, simply alone.
birds in my eyes, beasts in my skull
no ambition, liquor stores and
i want your pulse and your skin,
my dirty finger marks all over your heart.