I'm reading a book called the God Box and it's really making me think about things differently. I always thought that you could never be gay and chrisitan, but now I'm not so sure.
Encircle me I need to be taken down!
I am pretty frickin excited right now because Tegan and Sara are coming to town :D I LOVE them! unfortunately they're coming with Paramore.. which I personally don't understand why you would put those two together. It doesn't make any sense; they're two totally different bands. Oh well, I'm still stoked.
My life has been totally insane lately. Not only am i falling for my best friend (*hard*) but my ex is also trying to hook up with me again. This is so confusing.. I mean my ex.. I loved her with every inch of me but now we've grown apart and I've moved on. And I feel in a way I want to get back together with her but in another way I'm so tired of all the drama and frustration and pain she brings into my life. She always gets mad because of the way I act around my best friend. She says "your face lights up when you see her... like you used to do with me..." Times change hun.
And I'm crazy about her. She's so beautiful and outgoing. She's into this really weird indie music and there's something... like childish about her but in a good way... I don't know haha.. it's weird.
I found out she was bi a while ago and I was so happy! But every time she comes around I just shut down. I'm too scared to talk to her and I don't know how to flirt! When I know someone and if I'm comfortable with them I can flirt like mess but I don't know her that well so I feel awkward around her. Can anyone help me??? How do you flirt with a girl you barely know??
So, my parents know about my sexuality; I told them about a year ago. The problem is they're Christian and completely reject that part of me. We haven't really talked about it since I came out to them, but it's still hanging around the air. There's always those quiet, awkward moments after someone says something when everyone knows everything's thinking about me being gay. It hurts me to know that my family doesn't accept me, and they don't even try to learn what it's all about. All they know is the bible says it's wrong, end of story.