(early christmas present) Motorola DEFY! OMG! ANDROID! IT'S SO AWESOME! today i used it to watch Beavis and Butthead (via youtube) after lunch (no friends in that lunch period, it's a big school). i also put much Baroque Lute music into it, yay! after school i just hung around and played some Gogol Bordello. i was just knocking off today. surprisingly enough i started seeing more of the older phones like my old Motorola RAZR. i used to see nothing but Smart Phones but now i only see more of the older phones, such as my already well dated Motorola RAZR.
lots of people, mainly teachers around my school seem to think i have talent for playing Classical Guitar. although not to say they are wrong or anything, i am just a novice. i only read numeric tablature, i still fail to comprehend notation. i absolutley hate it when anyone my age says i'm good at guitar and that they could never be good at Guitar. if they learned the instrument they could easily outdo me. guitar does not require much talent, it really requires practice, and a will to learn.
i went to this music store with my dad (my ride). it was a considerable step up from the local music shops. pianos on the floor, guitars on the walls, racks of various musical instruments, so many accessories. i was overwhelmed, since alot of things in one place tend to overwhelm my senses. i looked around trying to find what i needed and not buy the items of my day dreams. i saw this rack of capos, oh man just the many brands and the colors. so many string sets all so many.
there was a near shooting at school today. man, all the interesting stuff happens when i leave the lunch room. guy was not caught to my knowledge. our school is going to hell in a Prada bag and it's full of rejected credit cards. in other news it seems as if my research project is going fine, so instead of working on it tonight i'll do it on the week's end. while we were in (code red) lockdown i wished i had my fantasy love with me holding me, assuring me we would live through the crazed shooter's rampage.
(normally i don't write this way but i will today) god damn it i hate this stupid senior research project. it's total bullshit and isn't teaching me anything, except that life is full of pointless tasks and the ever running clock. my mom is mad at me for bitching about the work i have to do on this piece of shit so called research project. i also have music theory homework which is even more retarded but at least, oh wait no i can't fuck up on that either.
so i got Strawberry Perl, YAY! and i'm reviewing one of my old demos (going on one year already). it's the 2009 Demo, although this is the first anyone has heard of it or the first time i've metioned that i used to make demo tapes. back in 2009 i was inspired by Beck to make these rowdy off the wall Folk tunes, then in mid 2010 i came across "Anonymous: Coranto" and i was with classical guitar. i'm going to play my old Folk Guitar now.
ugh... SENIOR RESEARCH PROJECT SUCKS! and i can't figure out my physics homework. in other news i'm going to sign up for a video game tournament (i'm addicted to this "new" pc game) and a few of my friends will join me. if only life were simpler and not so unnecessarily complicated. i just think if life were less complex we would all be significantly happier, if only, if only.
so yeah i'm a bit under the weather. speaking of weather it's nice and cool outside which is always welcome in the lone star state. i have some Paco de Lucia on to try and see if music works as a healer (see, Kircher: "Antidotum Taratulae"). it feels weird afterall this is my first sick day of senior year. i wonder how my friends are enjoying being in school with nothing to do today since the freshmen are testing. oh well, i'm just trying to stay alive, and so far it's working.
it's times like these when i want i could go back. back to when i was junior. the whole world was my oyster and me and "T" were at the top of the world, nothing could stop the two best friends. i was passing all my classes, Beck's early folk tunes tape i compiled was the soundtrack for the whole year. i want to go back when things were just a little simpler. i thought i was unstoppable, an example of "if i can do it you can too". only now do i see many more flaws and my youthful thinking disappearing into the mystique of adulthood.
my grandfather has taken a sudden turn for the worse. it's times like these i wish i had spent more time with him (and learned spanish to better communicate with him). :(
i wish i had friends who were really friends. the friends i would see even after school was over, the friends that wouldn't mind seeing all my sides. maybe a friend or two who shared interests in music and playing music. if only, there were people i could "hang out" with who would be proud to have me as a friend. sure there is always college to make new friends, but that would be different, it's always different, i'm just too different. it's odd, or maybe i'm odd, that there are no people who could relate to me or tolerate me. there must be something wrong with me, maybe.
i wish i could wear clothing of the opposite sex. i could make it work. i just like gender-bending. is that weird? oh well. it's not a fetish thing, i guess it's a werid shot at being attractive and having some new positive self image. i saw a skirt and thought "i wonder, what it would be like to wear a skirt?".
can't stop listening to the DOS Techno Virus. uh signing up for the sat's, ends in two weeks. so i have some luck there, finally got around to cleaning my old notebook, did the typed report, and just watched Charlie Schmidt's "Keyboard Cat". now i have sometime to myself. :)
so i'm learning to play Minuet in G Major by: Johann Sebastian Bach. and also learning Minuet in A minor by Henry Purcell. i have not been reading my bible recently, i don't feel bad however i am obligated. i've had to many things to do recently, mainly STUPID ENGLISH 4. anyway back to the bible, i just don't want to forget where i left off. OHH! i just remembered i have a chesse danish behind my notebook (computer)! well i better get back to music theory homework. i still have yet to find time to sign up for the sat's. oh well i can work it out. :)