so i'm making my own webpage and it's going to be hosted on my old notebook (converted it into a server). it's my first webpage and unfortunately i can only put up an MHTML webpage, and to make a long story short it will be plain and simple webpage similar to the webpages in the early days of the World Wide Web. the server will be hosted privately under password protection, since i'm not ready to have it go public it's a test run so to say. so no one be surprised when i ask you to test run my webpage, and do whatever you can to see if you can find dead links, errors, Et Cetera.
today i was think to myself, "i don't fit in anywhere". and so i then thought "fuck it, i'm just a hybrid in that way". now even though i don't fit in anywhere especially here, i'm actually not having any apathy, or any negative outlook. i've decided to stop trying to fit in, it's too hard and complex. i have no idea how others manage to do it, probably my slight "ld" disposition.
i know skill is important to have, especially in this life. for example, i if wanted to be a musician i would have to lead a meager life under constant debt because i can't read musical notation to save my life. how does it apply? well, to be held in high regard you must absolutely prove that you have mastered and dominated a necessary part of being a musician.
but i got a red Nintendo Wii! from my dad, it was so nice of him to do so. :) i'm all happy about it. it's so awesome! it can do so much stuff. it can emulate a Gamecube. so i used a few Gamecube games, it can also use Gamecube controllers. it cames with two games packaged: "Super Mario Bros. Wii" and "Wii Sports". i'm not a big fan of the sports one, but i love the mario brothers game. :) the whole thing is red it stands out but, (IT'S RED, MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE COLOR!).
i am still trying to grasp the concept of this much time being left to me. so many things i could do. like; classical guitar, folk guitar, electric guitar, bass, piano, harmonica, making a computer server, play gamecube, listen to music, read books, watch movies, finally make that short film. so many things, so much time. it's almost annoying. it's relaxing though, i'll try to squeeze as much fun out of this time as i can.
so i was brought up in a house full of; wood, lead paint, sixty year old wallpaper, cast-iron hardware, glass door knobs, and the biggest windows. the house itself to date is 83 years old. i find it odd how i grew closer to the past than with modern times. i've grown accustomed to; the thick blankets used on cold nights, the creak of floorboards when walking, seeing modern items blending with various antiques and few relics, the occasional shift of the house making it very hard to open and close my bedroom door.
yesterday i went to the local music shop, and picked up a Dunlop glass slide, and a Dunlop elastic capo. i like how the glass slide fits perfectly on my pinky, it has good weight and clear undistorted sound. as for the capo ($3) i expected the worst. it was surprisingly well worth $3. given that you need some ambidexterity to stretch the elastic band to around the neck to the other side of the plastic coated metal bar (the design on the woven elastic looks great on my classical guitar).
i strongly dislike my feelings.
well, i'm pretty taxed tonight. no homework so that's a win in of itself. i asked myself a question today, why is it that older people complement my guitar playing yet others of my age show absolutly no interest in what i play? of course i guess it is a great repellent for people my age. after all nothing repels more than early baroque lute transcriptions for guitar! i had a thought today also (though there are always many) that i should cut my hair, so i could look like a much younger Neil Diamond.
(early christmas present) Motorola DEFY! OMG! ANDROID! IT'S SO AWESOME! today i used it to watch Beavis and Butthead (via youtube) after lunch (no friends in that lunch period, it's a big school). i also put much Baroque Lute music into it, yay! after school i just hung around and played some Gogol Bordello. i was just knocking off today. surprisingly enough i started seeing more of the older phones like my old Motorola RAZR. i used to see nothing but Smart Phones but now i only see more of the older phones, such as my already well dated Motorola RAZR.
lots of people, mainly teachers around my school seem to think i have talent for playing Classical Guitar. although not to say they are wrong or anything, i am just a novice. i only read numeric tablature, i still fail to comprehend notation. i absolutley hate it when anyone my age says i'm good at guitar and that they could never be good at Guitar. if they learned the instrument they could easily outdo me. guitar does not require much talent, it really requires practice, and a will to learn.
i went to this music store with my dad (my ride). it was a considerable step up from the local music shops. pianos on the floor, guitars on the walls, racks of various musical instruments, so many accessories. i was overwhelmed, since alot of things in one place tend to overwhelm my senses. i looked around trying to find what i needed and not buy the items of my day dreams. i saw this rack of capos, oh man just the many brands and the colors. so many string sets all so many.
there was a near shooting at school today. man, all the interesting stuff happens when i leave the lunch room. guy was not caught to my knowledge. our school is going to hell in a Prada bag and it's full of rejected credit cards. in other news it seems as if my research project is going fine, so instead of working on it tonight i'll do it on the week's end. while we were in (code red) lockdown i wished i had my fantasy love with me holding me, assuring me we would live through the crazed shooter's rampage.
(normally i don't write this way but i will today) god damn it i hate this stupid senior research project. it's total bullshit and isn't teaching me anything, except that life is full of pointless tasks and the ever running clock. my mom is mad at me for bitching about the work i have to do on this piece of shit so called research project. i also have music theory homework which is even more retarded but at least, oh wait no i can't fuck up on that either.