i like to be philosophical... well today it was raining. in lunch there was a leak in the ceiling and it was coming through those cardboard- like tiles. so a janitor put a bucket (a very large one) under it and poked the tile with a broom handle. and seemingly out-of-nowhere this gush of water came flowing out into the bucket everyone was like "man, i'm going to graduate from this place?". :) it was very funny.
yeah. so i was listening to some Beck, and i saw the documentary "10 Years of Mellow Gold"... anyway that was yesterday. at 10:00 P.M. i just started to bust out some of my old folk tunes. i didn't play guitar all day yesterday so i just let all the excess creativity flow. so now i might go back to my musical roots and get back on the folk singer wagon.
i haven't been paying much attention to my folk guitar. i wonder if i should give it up. i haven't wrote many songs recently. i just feel like i'm being unfair since my classical guitar gets much more attention from me. i know it seems silly, but i don't want to give up being a folk singer. it's very complex, it's not a huge problem eating away at me but i'm wondering if anyone could give me some advice.
today everyone had to stay in the classrooms because there were skunks roaming aroud one of the buildings. can you believe that? it's for real. well anyway it's raining here, and lute music is great to listen to right now. i'm very contented right now. these last few days have been very pleasent and mellow. oh how i cherrish days like these when everything goes the way i'd like them too. today i brought my classical guitar and hung out with some new people (musicians of course). gosh life right now is just fine, after all my life has not been this pleasent and calm in long time.
today was a very good day. my classes were easy for some reason. in music theory there were 3 new students and so now we start at day one (music teacher was not happy). physics was easy for the first time. everything else was very mellow like the strings of a bass. had homework... it was easy. it was math homework and i just used my computer to solve the problems. i have internet on my new computer now. YAY! i played some classical guitar on the porch. and i'm going to do some chat rooms and watch television.
today was not so bad. i don't have my supplies for some classes but to hell with it. Music Theory was not so bad. i found out that the football game on friday had a bit of unsportsman like activity. one of the players from the other school was a bit mad at another player on our side and he decided to beat up the player who commited the offense. our team lost as ussual, but whatever. i got to talk a bit with one of my teachers and just hang out after school, talking politics and music. then one of my friends brought his ukelele, which was nice. it's good to see some variety once in a while.
i have to go back to hell (school) tomorrow. i always knew my senior year would be a nightmare. it's a nightmare and i can't wake up. i feel so inadequate, it's like the song "Goin' nowhere fast" won't leave me alone... because i'm living it. i can't wait for the three day weekend coming up. i just need time to collect my thoughts, since my brain was overloaded this week. i pinched myself in Music Theory too see if i'd awake, but to no avail i stayed where i was. the only difference was i had a few broken blood vessels on my arm.
Anonymous: Coranto (ms. Board, fr.36r)
my favorite lute song. i hope to one day play it... only in a day dream i can. i can't dream about something like that. i can dream about really messed up stuff, but never anything nice... i wonder why.
somtimes i wonder if i've missed out on being a normal teenager... but oh well. it's not as if you can have a second shot at your teen years. sometimes i wish i lived in 17th century europe. that way i could play the lute and live off my day's earnings and travel all across europe, sort of like John Dowland. it's not glamorous to all, but to me that's the impossible dream. sure there wasn't a place for gays but it would be just the same in a way, i wouldn't be able to be open about it but i could live my dream. i would give everything up just to be free. free from the modern cage i call life.
today i finally got signal.
so anyway my senior year started off (monday) with; power going out in one building, an air conditioner catching fire on an other building, and a teacher getting stuck in an elevator... so it was a very exciting start! anyway i've got some ussual classes and many electives, my favorite class right now is Music Theory, so i'm going to learn to read and write music notation. also today i was the first person to bring a guitar! well i'll write more another time.
tomorrow marks the start of my senior year! :)
so anyway i'm reaching this site from my neighbors unsecured wifi hotspot. my HP G62 is super nice! the wireless on it is incredible, great signal! my internet service provider should make software compatible with Windows 7... it would make it so much more better.
the one problem is transferring all my music from my old Compaq Presario C500 to the new notebook... so much music.
won't be on here for awhile. stupid Windows 7 64 bit (my new computer) will not recognize my usb modem. so i'll be back soon. :)
sometimes i wonder if it's a bad thing that i've never experienced love.
if i had a choice between playing the 10-course Lute or a Viol i would not know which to choose. then again maybe i would choose the Bajo Sexto or Baroque Guitar. i've always wanted to play different stringed instruments it's the sound that stirs me and it's like i feel that i can communicate more through that instrument, but i remember that with any instrument you can communicate many things. sometimes i find that if i accidentally hit my classical guitar on my knee or i scratch it i say "oww" it's sort of like the instrument is a part of me.