Things will probably be the same on the outside yet on the inside there is doubt and concern. Unfounded? perhaps, but it is also not out of the realm of possibility that there be founded doubt and concern. One's thoughts can keep one awake at night. Anxiety, stress, concern, lonelyness, struggle, wants, needs... All can keep one from sleep.
As titles suggests, yes assume it. Hanging out with friends is nice, and no classes for a week is cool. I find myself occupied with too much time, and even studying has become fun for me. Nothing wrong with that per se, just never thought I'd look forward to it as much as I do in this current part of living.
Nothing's really new, almost as if things never change, however that's not true since everything has it's subtle changes. It's been quite the interesting time in my life, what with friends and chaotic events popping up hither and thither. All in all pretty good, all the ups and downs to be expected, all adds to experience and character.
There are no titles so it's like a surprise!
It is inevitable that things change, it's nothing that can be stopped. I for one find it very interesting how that empty old shop on the corner was remodeled into a restaurant that only lasted 3 months. It's now an empty old restaurant. It's the subtle changes that make us realize we are getting older.
I've been juggling a few things lately. Perhaps it's stress or maybe unresolved issues that I've been putting off their being dealt with. In fact it's the things around me that affect me the most when I observe the things that do go on in everyday life as it is around here for me and my family, or what's left of it.
Busy semester is busy. Aside from that I dropped a class, my sister moved out, got a few new threads and not much else. So here I skip to some discrepancies I've noticed. Although not about here or any place in particular but bullcrap is bullcrap and I have no idea why I always witness the oddest things.
Yeah I feel bad about not writing here for a while. I've been swamped with homework from my classes since I got some kind of viral infection. But I'm fine now, just playing catch-up. Everything's going pretty good considering all things for now. Again, sorry I haven't been keeping up with all of you. I'll probably pop in tomorrow.
My sister described in two words. She's moving out Wednesday though, so that makes me feel better. :-)
So yeah, sister's irresponsible and annoying. What else is new? Seriously I'm already desensitized to her crap. Either way, bullcrap is bullcrap and studies helps me to divert my focus from the offputting and always emotion inducing situations in which nothing happens or resentment is exchanged. So again, what the fuck else is new?
So yeah I'm keeping my head obove the water in my classes, save math. But math is being worked on so I'm going to get that shit together. But yeah I'm surviving and that's what matters to me. There's a new event I have no idea how to feel about. It seems so stupid how these things are going right back to where they were.
So yeah, my mother and I had a talk with my sister last night. Well, half talk, half argument. We both let her know we were tired of the crap we were having to put up with. This is really the first I let her know how much she's having an impact on Mom and I. She got really upset about it, I guess she can dish it out, but she can't take it.
Although I've been a bit stressed lately, I'm finally sinking into adaptation. It only took three weeks of this crap but I'm getting used to it. Although I can tell my Mother is starting to get sick of it. Although I can deal with the home situation and my course work, I'd still prefer that my sister decide to get a job and small apartment.
Seems like somedays I just isolate myself and I don't even talk to my mother hardly anymore. My sister is just always there now. I have to admit things are better than the first few years when she used to live with us, but still it's annoying. It's really annoying and I just eat in my room now because the smell has come back.
My sister has moved back in again. Along with the baby and her two children, her boyfriend was being a huge piece of shit as usual and he wanted to go single. I'm going to be honest, it really bugs me. No more hanging out with mom because now she never rests. I try to help, but I have no experience with caregiving.