So I figure I'll write about this thing that happened on Friday since I finally remembered it. I must have been blocking this out of my head since it was such a headache, and still is. I'll have to start from the beginning and this is in which I feel I'm in my own living sitcom. I swear that all the insane shit happens to me sometimes but maybe this too is a test.
So last week I had a CAT scan and it was an interesting experience to say the least. My doctor hasen't called me about it so it must not be too pressing of a matter which is very good for me. My lymphnode has decided to leave me alone and has shunken in size although still slightly aggrevated. But I've been in much better health lately so this is also very good.
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I love how you've decided to move stuff out of you garage! And now your collection of garage rats have decided to run around my backyard. And one of them crawled though my wall mounted Gas Heater and scared the shit out of my Mother and I at breakfast. So now we have a new bouncing grown-ass rat in our dining room. Thanks! NOT!
So maybe I never thought about this often or maybe I was always shutting it out of my mind. The past few days this thought has been in my mind and I simply cannot seem to rid myself of this thought. Sure, I've been fine before and so it is I've been fine after those things. But when I see examples in front of my eyes, I feel slightly depressed and hurt.
So this is a journal I've benn wanting to write for a few days but I've been a bit busy with the return of the swollen lymphnode but suffice it to say I've been optimistic about it. So I've not been worrying about it or doing any independent research. I'm fairly happy for the time being and I'm getting some more medical help.
So yeah, college on Monday. I'm so overwhelmed, this whole process of getting in was really worth it. Now if I could find out which rooms my classes are in that would be great. I'll probably just take a glance at my college account to check. Even though it's just two remidial classes and a required class, I'm very excited, nervous, thrilled, and scared.
I ordered a new Holy Qur'ān a few days ago, (probably) one more day to go until I receieve it. My old one is a crappy paperback from the 1970's which is falling apart. So I've bought a nice hardback to withstand (my) "average" usage. It's very nice, in my opinion. It has three columns of which I will explain in the next paragraph.
So I've been doing very well recently and I'm very thankful for that. Today was very nice, except for one thing. My favorite music store has gone out of business. What's worse is there are very few music stores in the city, and the old fall back doesn't sell the products I need for my instruments. So I've been pondering, "where do I go from here?".
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So I went in to the doctors offices this morning and I got my blood results back. All tests came back negative for anything harmful, and apparently I have a well-off blood count. As for my "funny kidney" it's calmed down quite a bit and it's just getting less annoying everyday. However I did decide to get that checked out.
My Mother and Sister were gone most of the morning here so I had a chance to take a relaxing bath and have a nice breakfast and watched Democracy Now. I then realized I forgot to watch Arab Labor last night, although there's always next sunday. I didn't wear shoes today just my old sandals.
my body sucks. My kidney is hurting me now. WHAT THE FUCK?! HOW IS THIS HAPPENING? Just one kidney is hurting and I know I don't have stones. Seriously, this is some bullshit. FUCK YOU KIDNEY! It's been hurting me after I wake up then it disappears. Then the next morning, bam, pain again. It's seriously pissing me off.
yes I'm feeling very good. Aside from the prick for blood drawing today, I'm feeling a decreased pain from the troublesome lymphnode. I was able to walk without any assistance from the cane, and I feel so great just because it's easier to walk around. I suppose the small sense of freedom has lifted my spirits.
And I'm not being emo, it's because walking with a cane makes you feel old. The stupid lymphnode in my groin area was really aggravated today. Yeah I would stay downstairs all the time and not go upstairs if my sister didn't come back to live with us. I really can't stand the one kid always crying because she never gets her way.