So yeah i found out I have a baby on the way, crazy! My life this yr has changed so much idk how im still standing. ugh!
Its over just like that just like the horocope said (strange) but I feel fine about it I want her back but Im much happier with out her. She turned into everyone else with all the drama, unsure of what they truly want, finding sumone rite after me, saying they never want to leave then are gone. Im not sure if Im fine with her leaving because im used to it or cuz i was tired of the drama or maybe I really didnt care for her as much as I thought. Its strange to me because I ask them to be honest and tell me things i did wrong or ways I act that are bothersome so I dont do that to someone else.
...on dating girls.
Girl are we moving to fast??? Im scared thing are going to get out of control and everythings going to fall apart?
Man I guess lifes getting better but I dont know how to exactly feel about it. I should be thinking about everything going on in my life and the only thing going thru my head is that I want a girl I can just hold in my arms and let all my worries dissappear. Everyone around me seems to have someone (except my roommate, I think he feels the same way) and right now I just want to cuddle. I want to look at one girl and have it where she makes me smile without even having to do anything.
Ok I dont like boys so why do they keep tryin, I already told you im not ever gonna like you! Its not you its just how it is. Im gay, no not just for now but forever. I dont care if you think I havent met the right guy yet for your info I believe the love of my life is this one guy but I messed things up with him and no guy can make me feel the way he did. Just leave me the F alone!
People make me wanna cry my armor is broken and the wall is down. I’ve been stabbed in the back and kicked to the ground I don’t know how to be happy anymore. I don’t know who to trust anymore, I don’t know who my friends are. I’m gone and I don’t think I’m coming back, my mind has cracked.
Just finished my 1st day of work! Im bored now. Wanna hang out and watch movies with me all night??
“You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if your life isdifferent because of me. Because mine's different. My God, you taught me so much, and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens.” -author unknown
It started when I was young I alawys felt more attracted to girls but thought it was wrong for me. (I had nothing aginst gay people though) It could have been because I went to catholic school. (churchs conflicting views) I spent k-8th at that same small school in a big city. i spent most of my child hood preventing any thing that could make me seem gay or is "gay"(Some Psychologist interpet it as a sign of being gay). In high school I believe I came out to 2 male friends (that later came out to me).[I also had a boyfriend that randomly told me he knows I like girls.