Why does my parents have to be such slaves to the sun. I know my country does not get a whole lot of sunshine all the time, but at the slight flash of light, everybody runs outside and makes their bodies pray under the sun. I am sick of this obsession for a tan. I personally don't care about getting a tan, yes sure it can be a nice factor, but i always prefer pale skin. This also spans to sunbathing, which unless i have a good book, find extremely boring. And then you get these people who lay there for hours on end and i think desperate much.
these are the kind of movies i live for now.
So i came out to my mother last night. And it was well fine. For some reason i feel normal. Like when people say there is massive relief well i get that but i don't correspond to it enterally. But the outcome was good from my mum so that helped. She said she accepted it and would love me for whatever i am.
Th flute is beautiful in this. I know im still going on about harry potter but i thought this piece of music in its own right was lovely.
OH MY i just watched harry potter and i was blown away. best one yet. just totally loved it a whole lot. Cant say much if you have not read the book but so worth it. Also i knew before that Daniel Radcliffe had been involved in the Trevor project, but i did not know how much. With a better looking on youtube with interviews i can truly say he is an idol of mine. He does not care if him being eccentric makes single minded people think he is a puff or gay and he has big love for our community. He speaks freely about how we should be treated as equal and speaks passionately about his involvement in the charity. Plus he won a hero award from a Trevor project charity event a few weeks and his speech was amazing.
I Like this. Alot.
i had my own epiphany yesterday. Well okay it was not religious but it was bold. After going to the cinema with my mum i was waiting in the cinema lobby while she was at the loo below. She was taking a while so i decided to look down the stairs to see if she was ever coming. And as i turned guess who appeared right at the end of the stairs. A guy that will be named A. Now A is my dream guy. He is just perfect to me. He dresses the best, better then me, has lovely auburn messy hair, pale skin, strong eyes, my height, skinny and just so arty.
I had a good day today. I went shopping with my friend to a near by city nearest to my hometown, even though i hardly had enough money. I went with my Friend Mermaid, who lately i have not been to chummy with. We never seemed to have anything to talk about like everything had just been said and done and we both had different sense's humour. But we bond mostly over shopping and today i had a great day with her. It went more smooth and less what the hell do i say next. I really hope that this continues more in later days.
Dont you just hate that feeling you get when we you have an amazing dream then wake up to boring reality. That happened to me the other night. I hated it as the dream seemed to be so personal.
I just saw Zooey Deschanel and all her global glory in 500 days of summer in an outdoor cinema! I have never been to anything like it before and it was not a drive in but everybody was sat all along on the grass in a big garden in town. It was so relaxed and carefree and a great evening. The weather (for once) was warm and oh it was bliss. It was cool being with loads of strangers but it all gelling well together and everybody acting like a large family.
SO my friend had organised a party and decided not to invite me and my other friends who we are both close with her! At first i was annoyed as we had been friends with her quite well indeed and she did it behind our backs and did not somehow to care or seemed to think we was not "good" enough for it. I got the text from my friend about it whilst i was walking to school and was mentally thinking that this girl is going to go down watch this space.
I watched 500 days of summer yesterday. I had watched it around a year ago and because i love Zooey Deschanel so much. But the first time i didn't feel much connection. Don't want to spoil much, but it kinda did annoy me that it wasn't a happy ending. Well the ending that most expected. Plus since it was Zooey, so i got really sad. Haha its wired i love her she is like my "straight" crush. I just felt really sorry for the guy.