Oh my. I am in love with this song. The way it folds into its chorus and everything just makes me melt.
So last night was my end of year Prom. Its not as grand or overhyped as they do it in American tv shows (are they really like that in America) but everybody at least dressed up (well most had taste) and we had in a museum so it was way bigger then the normal proms in a hotels. My style is not really smart preppy Boy but of course i wore a suit. I managed to get a vintage midnight blue velvet oversized bow tie as well which went well with the outfit. I have to say my best friend Em looked beautiful.
so its my birthday today! woowowhoohooo! well actually it felt very normal. To normal if i have to say the least. I have to be honest ad say i was a bit muffed that i did not actually get anything wrapped up and opened as my mum said she wants me to tell her what to get and since we were in london this past weekend she thought i would see something there. But saying that i have to remind myself that i am going to get finally a DSLR camera which i cant wait to get out and at least i got some cards and money today.
i hate it. I went out with my old friends today and god i am boring. I don't speak most of the time and hardly smile or laugh. I am empty inside. my friend who i have known for a least all my life i think, well in a nutshell she's changed. We used to be so tight, but now well it looks nice but i know that the spark has gone for now. Maybe it will come back, well that i will fulfil my withering hope. I remember in the winter when we had loads of snow we laid there at dusk on a hill just talking, me explaining about how i loved that guy "t" and everything.
"you spend far to much time on that thing"
my mum has been annoying me recently with her antics over how i am always on my laptop. I pushed it aside the fact that i am on it quite regally, thus it has got to the point were i am nearly attached to the hip with it. It is quite awful really. The fact that remains the solid truth that my life is slowly descending into a cyber mess.
ha love the part when she is dancing in the smoke. and her shorts.
no seriously i do, i have some bright turquoise ones on and bought some pink,purple and red ones i love them ha. Anyway went to the cinema tonight with friends to see this indie coming of age drama/comedy called submarine which is super good here is the trailer.
Jealousy is one of our worst sin's.
is vogue gender categorised. Obviously it is a women's fashion magazine with women's fashion in it, but i still read and love it even though i am a physical male. I have been interested in fashion magazines for a well over a year and a half now i think. i collect them as they have a big impact on who i am. But it seems that my mother has to question this. On the weekend the same and yet boring conversation occurred
Mum-why do you get all these vogues?
Me-because i like them...
Mum-yes but it is women's fashion, (que sarcastic laugh) there are for women, why do you want them
I find myself once again bored and alone on a saturday night.
why i am so strange with friendship
I sometimes daydream of making friends with people and hanging out. I mean i feel so stupid that i fantasises over this. blahhhhhh i feel so dumb its unreal.
Sometimes i actually feel like i am going mad. What happens is that if somebody usually my family and i get into a argument or i get really pissed of with them i start doing wired movements. Like as if i am doing a dance routine but possessed. Then i start acting out all the emotions and quotes that i have been linked throughout my mind whilst doing it. It feels like a expressive form of self harm as sometimes i on purpose fall over.