I DOUBLE DAREDEVIL DARE YOU TO BE YOURSELF!
GO ON ITS NOT THAT HARD.
Well maybe it might since you are as clear as glass everyday, making it highly visible to see through you'r "Different" personality.
Yer I just cried my eyes out at Bridge to Terabithiaita was so sad honest. But saying that it was beautiful to. Makes me want to live in the American countryside somewhere, but when i was younger.
Anyway i have had like the most horrendous weekend+Monday of my life since i had to finish and hand in ALL my art portfolio. It was pretty scary as i was up till 5 on sunday and 2 on monday and i could not stop feeling super nervous and getting panic rushes which really i cant explain. But it is over now i need to keep repeating to get this bizarre emotion away.
Thank you lord for giving me the pleasure of sweet music like this. Amen
far, i don't like you
Topics at school i seem to hate a lot. Too much. Sometimes i wonder if i speak of negativity like it is my personality. I notice that when i talk to new people we just end up saying things that annoy us and other people. Not nice and i am bored of it. Also with nearly everybody at school. They are all nearly stupid
I heard one girl say in the corridor the other day " i was talking to my mum and i said if my dance career doesn't take of i will just have a baby"
Black Swan-Amazing. Magnificent. Thrilling.
I feel more then i want to. Buried in my layers deep away from everyone. Confused and absent. Out of control but still framed. Aggravated without a voice. Bitter in my mouth. Cold and lazy. Separated to face it plain. But not depressed. Just distant.
I watched Ghost World like in the winter break and don't know if you guys have seen it but well i thought it was magical. I love how Thora Birch was so deadpan funny and the indie twist it had on the comedy. The soundtrack at the end was great and me being such an emotional i nearly cried at the end. Its one of those few films that was stylish but with not much intention. Also the storyline gave me comfort on my loneliness of being weird.
Today my Art teacher who has just come back from having a baby came to look at the work i have been doing for my portfolio since october. I was really scared as i have been doing photography and i thought she would be like " yer but were is the art". But she loved it and i was so so happy because i thought she was going to hate it since she loves portraits and all. Normally i always get average reception from teachers and hardly ever put my hand up for anything really. It was finally nice for someone to understand and like my work a lot.
I hate how people are leaving oasis, it makes me sad how the group may get even smaller without them. I understand that if you wont to go then that is you'r option but oh well. I may be only young to Oasis but i already feel attached to everybody. Sometimes it is like the highlight of my day.
AH this song is just lovely. i could truly get lost in it.
So here in england it has just turned 4 o clock and i am not tired at all. Listening to abba for some reason and whilst most people are intoxicated out of their minds i am well plain sober.
New years is always funny as you can almost feel everybody's heads coming up with those new years resolutions that will probably only end come mid feb. Must lose weight or don't get stressed and start a gym blah bah.
So here is my news years resolution
I want a Boyfriend
No correct that somebody who i can love but " agree's " with me. Thats all
It was nearly a week ago when me and my friend decided to go to this low key gig venue that is ever so popular with the "cool" kids from school. I knew a few of them briefly and one quite well and so we were nervous as we didn't know what to expect from everybody. I had always wanted to go to this venue which is called Fibbers and be there in the atmosphere moshing around having a very good time.
And boy it was not.
I forgot how much i used to love this song. I used to listen to it when i was i think 12 or something and i love how it is a sad song but also a hopeful one to
I just wanted to say
MERRY CHRISTMAS FELLOW OASISAINS :)
You said that you would be my friend. That i was like nobody that you had seen. That i was cool and looked good. That i was in and that we would go places together. Meet people and discover new experiences. A chance to escape my stale existence that i had inhabited to long.
I guess yet again i was wrong.