So I got the courage today to tell my Best-Friend I was Gay. She was actually very proud of me, for telling her that being so brave, and she said she still loved me and that it doesn't change anything about our friendship. So my day got better. It was also the start of the new Semester and I can already tell that I like my classes much more, new kids, some of which are people who are my friends :D. But anyways I thought I'd tell everyone my best-friend now knows my WONDERFUL secret.
Hey everyone! It's been a while since I've posted, again life's been busy, end of the high school semester, and I've been with my best-friend whenever I'm free, painting the town red with her haha. But anyways these past weeks have been very eyeopening for me and very inspirational. Friday night I was extremely bored and decided to watch this series on Netflix which collects short gay films into one sort of mega film. The series is called "Boys Life" and I watched possibly the most sweetest and inspirational gay film ever.
Sooo if any of you have been following my journal, btw sorry for not writing forever, life has been just so busy these past weeks. Anyways so like I said if you have been following my journal you might have heard about this guy who likes me and who I've been confused about my feelings with. Well today I just decided to go on a date with him. I was extremely nervous and dressed in a casual stylish outfit, a white William Rast Vneck, jeans, and a thick grey cardigan with a matching beanie. Anyways we went to the 3-dollar movies first and saw Due Date which was pretty funny.
In my dreams, I think of a place much like purgatory. Caught somewhere between heaven and hell. A place with no laws, no order, no uniformity, and no originality. A place where the only restrictions are those imposed by my own will. A place where I visit places I've been or travel to new places whether they be ordinary or fictitious.
Hey all, sorry I haven't posted in a couple of days. Well school started again, haha don't know whether or not to cheer or cry. Cheer because I get to see my friends more, and cry because well it's school haha. But if you read my last post I had a problem with my whole schedule and it took two days, some stress, and hardwork, but I was able to find the only College History Class Open during the time I needed it haha. Which I'm glad about, but with all that pent up stress I keep breaking out, oh the love of being a teenager. (I promise as the story progresses it gets better haha)
So in my State we have the opportunity to take college courses and get both college credits and High School credits. Well when I registered for Winter Quarter which starts on Monday, I didn't realize I registered for the completely wrong time for one of my classes until today. I registered two months ago.
My God, Stress is probably one of the worst feelings created within the human psyche. But what leads to my stress is money, sure I live in an Upper-Middle Class Family but there's also four children within the house and both my parents work full time and have to pay for my things (Car/Insurance, School Fees, etc...) and being the oldest and most mature child I wish I could do much more. I've been offered a position as a Lifeguard and all I have to do is pay $200 for lifeguard classes.
Living in a suburb, in a state that constantly rains, and in a chaotic family comes me. I'm your typical boy next door and like most people on here I'm gay, or am I? Only time will tell really. Being in the closet isn't much fun. I have to feel bad all the time, ask God why me, and thank God for repealing DADT, if I do come out by the time I start to serve. I took up this Journal as a new hobby for me and to give all of you the documentation of the life of a boring teenager who is yes, in the closet. Wow big surprise there, eh? Sure one person (my bestfriend) has suspicions about my sexuality, and sure when she or anyone else asks I deny that I am, and sure I also have only had girlfriends. I'm also a virgin and the closest I've been is a damn peck on the lips. I'm almost a legal adult! That's a bit effed up if you ask me.