Omg well the title says it all. I went on my first date last night you guys :D and may I say it was a magical night to remember I swear nothing could get me down today. Ok so we met on Jack'D and he inboxed me and I saw he was really close and really cute lol so we talked for a while and he asked for my number then we started texting then we got on the phone then we got to the topic of movies so I asked him if he wanted to go and omg he said yes lol so naturally I was nervous as fuck but I got over it. So when Saturday came I was excited the entire day just waiting til that night.
Omg so yea the title explains it all. But don't freak out y'all no humans were harmed. So I've taken up archery as a stress reliever and it's really been working. I've used the old shed in my back yard as a target and lets just say it sorta lost a door lol (I was real mad that day) but anyways if you see where my house is you'd see huge fields to the left and in the back and we usually see a lot of little creatures in our yard like snakes,opossum, and anything else that wanders in but my dog usually takes care of them because they all come in through the back yard.
Hey you guys :) So yea haha Kammy's back after like two years. So how's everyone been? Lol I've been absolutely fabulous. I've adopted a whole new attitude with a whole new personality and I've been good ever since.
so I'm laying on the sofa under my pink and purple polka-dot covers and then I started to think about everything that has happened to me since my last journal. Saturday my cousin on my dad's side of the family took me and my sisters the circus. Then after that she and her boyfriend took us to the movies. Her boyfriend and I saw X-men First Class (it was awesome) and she and my sisters saw Super 8. Then we went back to her apartment and spent the night there.
I swear on my fucking life I will kill that man. and that's not a threat its a fucking promise. he has one more chance to insult me or my family and I will beat him down to his knees. even though I'm a pacifist I'll make an exception for him. I can't take it anymore. I'm about to go crazy. he thinks just cause today is his anniversary he can push me around and force me to do all his work. I think not. he has one more time to call my mom a bitch behinde her back. I called him a dumass on facebook today and my mom told me to delete it but I deleted her as a friend instead.
so I'm going to tell you all about the people I'm forced to live with and why they make my life a living hell. I'll start with my sisters and end with my dad since I really don't have any problems with my mom.
I think that's the best title I've ever come up with so far. anyway I forgot what I really wanted to talk about so I'll just ramble about some random things. I'm on a mission for the summer to see how long I can go without sleep. so far my record is one day and it is now 3:22 a.m. and I don't feel sleepy yet. but most likely I'll go to sleep at 4:00 cause for some reason I just can't stay awake after that. well I just need to stay active and do something to occupy my time. plus the sound of my dog barking is keeping me awake so I have to thank my dog for her help.
well nothing bad happened but its just been really BORING. but even though its been boring its been good. I went to the mall with my mom and my sisters to get some new clothes. I got two Aeropostale shirts (spellcheck) (one purple one orange) and some cargo shorts. but its weird because I never wear those colors. I just thought it's time for a little change in appearance. I also got a new video game called Conduit 2. sad its the only shooter game I've ever owned. all the other video games I've owned were strategy and simulation genre. so that was pretty cool I guess.
life has been uber boring sice I got out of school. hmm...I'm just noticing that I typed the word uber. that's the first time I've ever typed that word ever...I have no idea why. anyway back to the journal. I am proud to say that I'm officially over that stupid boy who I thought I liked . but hey like my cousin always tells me "if I don't get over him I'll never find a boy I really like." she's my favorite cousin I love her so much :) yesterday I poured my heart out to another one of my cousins. I told her why I threaten to kill any boy who comes near my sister.
what does love mean? its just a four letter word that has no fucking meaning anymore. I used to love that feeling of butterflies in my stomach when I was around that certain someone. but now that feeling hurts. I just want someone to love me for me and a person who doesn't care about what others think or say about him. where can I find a guy like that. where?? am I the problem? is something wrong with me? am I being punished for something I did? my best choice would be to just give up on love for now. but whenever I see his face, a feeling of love takes control of my heart.
well today is my last day of school. I thought the last day was supposed to be the best day ever. I WAS WAY TOO WRONG!!!!! the stupid 11th graders are throwing water balloons eggs and nacho cheese at anyone they can find. oh and did I mention that I'm typing this from school. I got hit in my fucking back with a fucking water ballon. the stupid thing is that they kept throwing water ballons in the hallway after the bell rang instead of staying outside. now I'm scared to go outside cause I know I'm gonna get soaked with water. its good they made them clean everything up though.
OMG...... I'm so happy right now. mostly because school ends tomorrow. finally I get to be free from that. homophobic hellhole. I'm also happy because I passed. I PASSED!!!!! no one thought I could do it but I did WHOOP WHOOP!!!!!!! but I feel sorry for some the kids who failed. especially this one girl who cried her eyes out because she failed. and I know its wrong but I'm SUPER happy that two of the many people I hate failed and now I wont have to deal with them next year. but I'm sad because my cousin failed too and she was SUPER PISSED.
two bitches to be exact. first one is my twin sister. I hate her soooo much. I just can't stand the way she treats me like I'm not older than her. that's right I'm the older twin and I deserve to be treated as such. its just not fair that I'm always being treated like I'm younger than her. and plus
well I failed. I took a shot with him but I blew it. but I'm ok. so here's out convo
me: can I ask you something
me: never mind I can't do it
him: what is it just ask me
me: if I don't do this ill never get another chance
him: will you just ask me already
me: what are the chances of you being like me?
him: what do you mean like you?
me: what do you think?
him: are you asking if I'm gay?
me : yeah
him: no sorry
me: lol its ok :)
lol this will be my shortest journal ever.
I really have no idea why I have to plan everything I do. but I wanna plan how I'm going to ask a certain boy to be my boyfriend. cause never in my life will I ever just go up to him and say "hey do you wanna be my boyfriend?" I'm way too shy for that. so do you guys have any ideas on what I could do.