Ok, so, here's the problem.
Things are goin well for me so far. I’ve been seeing someone for a little while and things are getting rocky but I’ve decided if it ends it ends and it just wasn’t meant to be. I mean don’t get my wrong, I love Dan, but if I’m the only one who puts in an effort to keep this thing going then it’s not worthy of my time and patience. Feud and fuss is the breeding grounds for drama if you ask me.
As I sit here in a beanbag chair munching on a can of Pringles and listening to my old Bob Seger record (yes, I listen to records on a real record player), I can’t help but feel chill as a som’bitch. My whole mind is just clear and slow right now. I’m swaying my hand to the old fashioned ring of his voice. I’m bobbing my cowboy hat clad head. I feel like I’m in heaven right now.
Howdy, friends. It’s been long enough I suppose between my last post and the one I make now for me to give an update on how I’ve been and what I’ve been up to. Mostly, there are only a few things to discuss so I expect it to be a rather short but sweet journal.
Yesterday was full of disappointment.
In the beginning I planned on spending the day getting ready for my performance last night, but I couldn’t find my material, and had to call it off because there’s no way I could do a thirty minute joke rant without the material being fresh in my mind. I always hate canceling so close to the point of going on stage, it looks bad on me and my act as well as the loss of funds.
Well...it's been a while since i've posted on here so i suppose i ought to go over what's been happening as of late.
James and I ran into a rough patch, he confronted me and told me that he was frustrated. He felt we were at a place where he could only be satisfied by moving onto a deeper level of a relationship and we couldn’t do that with our busy lifestyles. We simply wouldn’t have enough time in between our class and jobs to keep this up.
I haven’t posted in a while and I thought it nice to update on here. For those who don’t know me, I’m Jack. I’m an amateur stand up comedian with regular shows as well wherever they’ll hire me or if the cause is good…I’ll just do it for free since at this point of my life it’s more like a passion with a convenient pay rather than an actual job per se.
I feel like just falling into my bed and not getting out for a couple months.
Food sits in my stomach like a lead brick, my head is always heavy, and my stomach is killing me. I have no idea what i have but i don't want any more of it i'll tell you that.
I've got a lot of work to get done at school, so if i stay home then i'll fall behind and might not graduate. This is bullshit! I'm never sick until i need to be healthy, but when my well being has no effect on anything i'm healthy as a horse!
I got in trouble for telling a joke about the president to a friend of mine who's thinking about running for congress when she's older. It wasn't against her or against politics, i just did a little bit about how being the president of the United States is a lot like being a convicted pedophile. Which is TRUE! Think about it, everybody knows exactly where you live, you have your own signs to put in yards, and you got there by posing with children and kissing babies. You're either a diaper sniper or the Commander and Chief of the nation.
God, I love stars…they’re so beautiful. And they’re always shining you know, always, even when you can’t see them you can count on them shining. I think we all need thing like that you know? Things we can be absolutely certain of, so we can plant our roots on it and have a steady foundation for the rest of our beliefs in life. Whether it be in something simple as gravity on earth, or a belief in a religion, or in something like the love of another person.
For those who caught sight of my forum post, I had another date with James last Saturday. It was, in a word, wonderful.
I swear, this guy gets more and more adorably affectionate and amazingly witty every time we meet. All we did was sit and watch some movies with some snacks (including my homemade chocolate ice cream, he LOVED it) and a blanket to share, but it was more fun than I’ve had in as far back as I could remember.
So things went well on Christmas, around three o'clock that day i got a text from the guy i went to coffee with a few weeks back. I don't know how he'd feel about me just giving out his name willy nilly so lets call him James since his name starts with the same letter.
So i met James at a local park on noon the day of New Year's eve. He spotted me and instantly had this bright little smile on his face. I noticed he was wearing the scarf around his neck, tied on with the fashion-wise style and class of someone who truly cares about how he looks. The meeting went somewhat like this:
Though i think we need to stop considering Christmas a christian holiday. We take a tree, make it sparkly, and shove it up an angel's ass. How christian is that?
Also, I always thought i loved this holiday because i got presents, but now i realize how great it is to GIVE presents. It's a great way of dropping a hint to the people you spend your life with in a room full of people you may want to refer to later in court as "witnesses". After all, nothing says "I'm not attracted to your fat ass anymore" like a Subway gift card!
I'm welcoming myself back with this little journal. Should be good to explain what's been going on since the last journal.
So the date went well. We met the Saturday after my last journal at a coffee shop. It as my first time in a Star Bucks, not gonna lie, i've had better coffee and really don't see what the big deal was. Organic coffees from reservations in West Virginia tasted better. But, meh, for Ohio coffee shop standards it was alright.