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Nothing but good stuff.

Came out to one of my friends Friday. We went to this really awesome train bridge across the river, walked on the tracks and beneath them, a hundred feet above the water. He brought his camera (he's really into photography) and took a bunch of pictures. He told me that a girl in his math class was talking about how she thinks I'm bi. I told him she's close, but I'm actually completely gay. He took it really well. But I have a feeling he'll tell some of our friends. Oh well. He won't do it out of spite. I know that.

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I got a 29 on my ACT. Is that good enough, do you think? I'm gonna take it again in April or something to see if I can get in the 30's. Many would be happy with a 29, but I want to do better.

Brittany texted me tonight and told me she absolutely loves my poetry. She says it's beautiful, fantastic. She's really nervous about bringing her own poetry because she's never shared it with anyone before. She wasn't at school today. Would've been nice to hear her praise in person.

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Definite Progress.

Brittany and I talked about poetry last night. Turns out she writes poetry too, but is just as shy as I am about sharing it with people. I swear to you guys, this girl keeps getting cooler every day. We actually have quite a bit in common. I actually suggested that we exchange poems some time and give each other some feedback. So I'll be sharing my work with her, which is so weird. I'm more willing to share my work with her than with people I've known for years. I'm probably just trying to impress her or something.

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Ramble, Part III

Anybody ever wonder how kissing started? What was the first kiss like? Who came up with the idea of showing affection by pressing mouths together? Come to think of it, who invented hugs? Just something weird to consider.

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Ramble, Part II.

I ordered a Teen Titans T-shirt on Amazon a week ago, and it still hasn't come yet. Luckily I am very patient, and Teen Titans is worth waiting for. Anybody else ever watch that show? Oh man, that show was my childhood. I was obsessed. I loved Raven because she was all dark and mysterious and I thought that was the coolest thing ever.

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I've noticed that before my period, I fall into these disturbing bouts of depression. During my period, I'm pretty much fine. After my period, which is right now, I get extremely angry. At everything. If I see someone wearing hideous socks, I'm likely to begin an explosive rant about the importance of selecting decent socks, during which I am likely to foam at the mouth and use an unnecessary amount of expletives. Today I threw a shirt hanger at my cat because she wouldn't stop meowing at me while I was trying to pee.

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Psychology Stuff.

I just finished a paper for AP Psych about personality. We're talking about the ego, the superego, Freud's insanely inaccurate theories about how personality is formed. Penis envy? Oedipus complex? For fuck's sake Freud, not everything has to do with aggression and sex. I'm more interested in Maslow's hierarchy of needs and Carl Rogers's more humanistic and practical approach to personality development.

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I've been giving a lot of thought on my career plan lately. I'd LOVE to major in creative writing, really gives me little wiggle room. I'm definitely going to pursue a career as an author, but it's time to be realistic. I might not sell well, or it may take me years to get published, or I may never get published at all. I need a steady source of income while I'm working on my novels. Unfortunately, there aren't many jobs you can get with a creative writing major, other than, of course, being a writer.

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Happy Single Awareness Day, everyone.

Valentine's Day is not a good holiday for single people. I spent my entire day daydreaming about what I would plan for that special someone today. But then I started thinking...why do couples wait until Valentine's to get romantic and lovey dovey? I'm the kind of girl who would do something mushy and special for my girlfriend WAY more than just once a year...So that's why I think this holiday is just bullshit, just another way for florists and Russell Stover to cash in on roses and cheap half-priced chocolates. Gag.

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Important News.

I came out to my mom yesterday. She's suspected that I've been questioning my identity for awhile, she's just been too scared to say anything to me. She didn't want me to get mad at her for bringing it up. Ultimate irony, because I didn't say anything because I didn't want HER getting mad at ME. So for the past few months it's been the metaphorical elephant in the room.

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Some random facts about myself.

First and foremost, I'll be sending Brittany a text tonight, since it's been two days since we've talked. I'm stuck between two possible messages: The really friendly "Heya Brittany! How's it going?" Or the specific question: "So, random question because I'm curious: what are some of your favorite bands?" I mean, the first one would allow for a broader conversation, but it's also a bit lame. And it would give her an opportunity to give a short answer like "Good" and the conversation immediately dies. Which is better?

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Best. Night. EVER.

I am so happy right now you people have no idea. Amber texted Brittany and gave her my number, and THEN SHE TEXTED ME. BRITTANY. TEXTED. ME. And she was so cool beans about it, and we just had a nice conversation. She was so talkative and funny. We talked about her college interview, my job, just nice things. Our talk was a bit shorter than I would have liked...I'm pretty sure she fell asleep in the middle of our conversation. But it was 2 in the morning, so I don't blame her.

But there's more!

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A Random String of Recent Events.

I've dealt with an onslaught of homophobic comments that seem to have come from nowhere. Just all of the sudden BAM! Ignorance everywhere. My grandma said that she won't watch Ellen's show because of her "lifestyle choices." My little sister's friend said she hates lesbians cuz they're gross and shit. And when I went out to eat with a big group of friends (my first social outing in weeks, by the way), they were talking about my Chemistry teacher being a lesbian and homophobic comments were said. I mean damn. Why is it that all of the sudden people around me are showing intense homophobia?

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I had to write this journal twice.

A teacher stapling a McDonald's application to a student's failed test. Right or wrong? Just curious.

You know what name I like? Margo. I'm not sure why. It's an old lady name, yet it somehow manages to be awesome. I think I'll name one of my characters Margo.

Have you ever noticed how MTV (which stands for music TV, I think) doesn't even show music videos anymore? It used to show some pretty freakin' awesome rock music videos. What the hell is this? When did this change?

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Need some opinions about things.

1) I saw yesterday that one of my friends had written the words "gay pride" on her cheeks and it made me mad. Because she's not gay, because she can't even begin to understand what it's like to be gay, because she can write that on her face shamelessly and I never could, because she probably just did it for attention...I dunno. I don't really know what I'd think if a straight person advertised gay pride. Depends on their intentions. Maybe I've no right to be irked with her, maybe she was being sincere.

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