Hey I have been wanting to know... Has anyone ever seen the show... It's Always Sunny In Philidephia... It is a super funny show that has always pulled me out of my depressive states whenever I wacth it becuase it kind of has that sick type of humor that I like in it... :P

Basically I could call it a real life version of South Park, but frankly at least the boys in south park actually learn a lesson every now and then :P And don't try to kill each other for even a quick buck :P

I hate the entire human race.... I really can't stand it anymore, but really I guess there is nothing I can do about it anymore... I mean seriously I have to be honest I will never have the balls to kill myself. So I am not sucidal. I never want to die, and probably will always be to scared to. Frankly I am a coward and will always have to live with that every single moment knowing that I have a way out of all of this and frankly I can't take it no matter what.

For some reason I feel so alone...
I feel like my only friends now are my pet chickens...
My little disabled Bantam named 'No Leg'...
My recovering Bantam named 'One Leg'
My fiesty Rhode Island Red named 'Big Red'
My top of the pecking order Black Bantam Rooster 'Bennie'
My little lovable Silkie named 'Drood'...
I love and adore them so much...
The only thing I ever want to do is spend time around the flock...
Just cuddling and holding them...
I don't have any friends...
I don't like spending any time around people anymore...
Or at least that is the way I am starting to feel...

Dear Chris, Lonewolf, and the rest of Oasis

Has anyone played the game Alice...? I would like to talk about the game with anyone who knows anything about becuase it's symbolic nature and everything about just instrest me becuase I am huge Alice In Wonderland fan :P

Well I am going to be talking about two things today... First is game... and the second is what in my opinion is people making way to big a deal out of somthing simple.

Ok for the first thing... Has anyone played the game Alice or played the new sequal... Alice: Madness Returns... I have only played through a bit of the second and would like if anyone wants to discuss the symbolic nature of the stuff in the game becuase it is what I would call a hella trippy game. *Loves him some Chesire Cat*

Well remember how I told you guys that I was going to get another cat after my old one ran away. Well we have gone and have gotten my new cat form the animal shelter.... and I have named her Elizabeth... if you ever wacthed the anime Gintama then you know where I got the name form the duck like charater on that show :P... Not form any silly Queeens...

Well here is another math eqaution journal for me, so like last time it is time to explain it all :P...

1. Well I have finally finished the expansion for Fallout New Vegas called Honest Hearts, and I would have to say that I was quite impressed especially becuase they added the Tommy Gun to the game which really gave my charater a gangster feel to him when he goes walking into New Vegas. Plus the Burned Man himself Jousha Garham was quite a pimp himself, becuase he had a pistol known as, "A Light in the Darkness" Which was a beast of a .45 :P....

Well guys I know you have heard egough of me bicth recently, but now I am back on top and feeling better a good talk with a speical friend Lonewolf... *Gives a thrid huggles* Anyway I have had some good things happen to me today up in that little title of mine so it is time to explian the little eqaution that made today a good day... :D

Why guys do you sit there act like a butt to me when I am sad... yet when I am happy you guys rarely talk to me. Am I that boring to everyone :(... I mean I understand that you guys need to yell at me when I am trolling, but when I am actually sad, you people seem to think it is the same thing. :(

Why do you guys do that?... I mean I have sadness too, and I want to express it, or do I have to pretend to be happy all the time. I just don't understand :(

Well recently I have finally bought the Honest Hearts expansion for New Vegas and even though I am not done with it... I can pretty much tell that this is going to be a fucking blast. :D I mean when I ment the Burned Man face to face there I had to say that I was indeed just as impressed as I thought I would of Joshua Graham. Plus the fact that he was selling Tommy Guns and with the games whole 50s Veges style going on, I just had to buy one form the guy... along with the drum magainze attachment. :D Now I look really Old School Gangster :P

Well recently I have started to sleep without any clothes on at all... just to see what it is like to sleep naked... and I have to say that I find it very freeing and a hell of a lot more comforntable than sleeping in clothes especially now that it is the summer and it is getting quite hot down here in the south. :P Even my fan doesn't really do much to keep me all that cool, so I think that this new method will work quite a bit better... and maybe will help me with the idea of being naked period which is not somthing I usally enjoy sinice it involves being exposed.

I was up all night last night and just couldn't sleep as I read up all I could on the new Fallout New Vagas DLC that would be coming out in a few days... May the 17th for any of you guys who wants to play it. ;)

Here is what he looks like http://fallout.wikia.com/wiki/Joshua_Graham

Form now on, I am just going to post jounrals as my normal self and stop trying to be a drama whore... I understand people are still going to dislike me for my dramawhoring and I don't care... I will say that I am sorry, and hopefully here is to new journals form now on. I am doing this becuase it seems my inability to express my sadness correctly is not making people happy, I will just express when I am happy instead :D That is always esay to express... :P Sorry if my journal put people asleep instead of make you laugh form now on :(

Alright guys I am going to do somthing that I think I have been needing to do... and I think it will be able to be used in the future... and that is I am going to make a list of all the things I am proud of about myself... So if I start bicthing about somthing you guys can point me here and just ingore my ass or whatever :P

1. I am smart-I have completed my second year in college taking twenty hours with stright A's... and was almost on the deans list. So I know I kick butt in the brains department.