It's been a while, but I'm in the mood to write a post and first of all merry Christmas to everyone (even if its late).
My parents had a week on a cabin in the beach so they were going to sell it, but no one bought it and my sister came from Argentina and she wanted to come. It was a long trip, I'm with my best girl friend and its been awesome.
Remember the fugly gay guy I had talked about in other posts? Well, I messed things with him. I was talking with my friends about my job when some friend said that I will be a male prostitute and that I would be that kid prostitute, I joked with it saying that he was jealous because at least he buys me when he was walking by, I think he heard me and I said it out loud (Shit!) so he probably did. The rest of the day he kept staring at me and its awkward. Today things got weirder.
So this has been a problem since I decided to not make part of any religion in my old school where I had to stand some hateful comments about it, I fought but then I just realized I shouldn't give a fuck about it because that's one of my reasons I stopped believing in some god that says he's the only one so most of the people will say their gods are fake and that they will go to hell. Every religion class was a fight for standing up for my beliefs, but I wasn't alone, there were some other classmates that think the same way, but I stopped fighting and they lost interest.
Last week and this week have been kinda stressful because I'm failing maths and my parents think I'm lazy and that I don't understand when I do. Anyways I knew las week was going to be horrible, my depression is trying to get back, I made new cuts, hit really hard my leg with a rock and I think I made some damage, it haven't healed completely and my suicide thoughts got back.
Remember my crush? Well, he is straight and he has a crush on my best friend. After knowing it, I felt bad but then every emotion was gone. It's good and bad because I can't feel bad, I can't make me feel bad, but the problem is that I'm not enjoying things with my friends :/.
My friends are so accepting about gays, but they got the bad point of view of gays thanks to some pervy gay guy that's in my class and some friend wants a gay friend
Good update: today I came out to some of my best friends
Its been a long time since I've been here and many things have happened
• Told Nico about my huge crush on him, he replied "Be happy with your life"
• My new school is super cool and I love it
• My aunt is coming to live here in Colombia
• kicked my old school ass with my final grades on Spanish and physicis
• My new best friends are the best thing in the world and one of them calls me "gay friend" and it's because she tells me everything and she don't want anything with me
I'm so lost here that many things happened:
I went to Medellin and met with a few old friends and one of them was with some guy from Florida, he was always trying to impress me and I flirt a little.
Dad got hospitalized until yesterday and when I visited him, he got in quarentine and I had to stay in some neighbor house until someone could get me home and watch for me.
So basically what haven't happened?
On Tuesday some girl from the other class pulled out my writing therapy notebook and passed it to some friend when someone told me: "Whats this Daniel?" and I immediately ran for it because they were on the page were I wrote my big crush for Nico and the one who had it threw it to the bitch that got it out and I went to her and she didn't let me reach it until I grabbed her head and pushed it until it hit the floor. She ran away as I grabbed my things and went to other place when some teacher reached me and we talked.
I'm so mad right now with my government. They always steal most of the money. Example: in the middle of a non existing place they decide to build a road, so everything costs about $10,000,000 Pesos. But things go like this
For the politic who is planing to do it: $4,000,000 pesos. The one who planned/did everything: $3,000,000 pesos. Materials, workers and wachines: $3,000,000 pesos and the fucking road last 2 years plus lots of tolls that costs about $5-7,000 pesos and since the road is in a bad shape, it will last 20 years (supposed by politics)!
I've been lost since my last journal, many things happened:
School cup was awesome the next day because more hot guys came and I wanted one of them so badly!
On friday, I had techer parents conference and my mom wanted to kill me bevause I failed geometry (plus that I wanted to kill myself and cut *I had been cutting since febuary, but stopped+). Went to a party that was awesome and almost kissed Andy when I was going, but my dad called my and my brain told me to stop.
On Saturday I started a 10 hour trip to Coveñas.
Sunday: arrived to Coveñas
So today in school there was a sports cup and didn't do anything all day except for painting a wall in the arts classroom, watch hot guys from other schools (there was a lot of hot guys!) played some ask question game with some friends and the questions were like this:
Q:"would you put tits for oral sex or make your ass bigger for anal?"
A: "ass, because I don't have any and I can't imagine myself with tits!"
Q: "who from our class would you fuck and why? And it's only guys!"
Today was a great day:
1. Had math exam and it had wrong answers.
2. Yesterday was the men's day in Colombia and today TW girls from my clad gave every guy a chocolate with some piropo (don't know how to traduce) and mine said: "you're like Colombian coffee; delicious until the last drop!", and gave us pizza! :)
3. Asked Andy if he liked some friend and he answered no.
4. Made a lot of eye contact with Andy, got kinda touchy with him and he didn't moved.
5. Winter might start. I need to see what will happen in the next 3 days!
That's all! I hope everyone have a great day! :D
I've been really lost since my last journal and it's because my dad took away the Internet in all the house. This week I started to flirt with Andy, but he kinda looks like if he got a crush on some friend, Realized that Nico got a crush on some friend (the one I think Andy got a crush on!). Final exams started and I'm going to the beach with some friends on spring break and that's all!
WTF Nico?! You talk to me like if nothing had happened and then you get lost without telling me why! I know something: GO FUCK YOURSELF WITH A CACTUS! IMAGINE A FOREST AND GET LOST! :@
I already moved on, don't make it hard!
Nico is talking again after being lost a since Wednesday.
Andrew got more antisocial after the 2 period and looked sad. :(
Went to my Neuropsycologyst on Friday and I asked her why that question about finding myself, got an awnser and told me that Nico don't have criteria.
Got a narcissism with my stomach!