Oasisans HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! XOXOXO
In Colombia I dont celebrate that until September
Anarchist, I know how you're feeling, with Nico things are quite similar, but it's getting better.
Today school was the same boring crap, Nico best friend again started mocking me, but it's not like the other times because now he is saying that he has a crush on me! And in PE he started saying: "Daniel, papi ricooo!" and I ignored him until he threated me with a sharpie (weird!) and he was going to attack me when I threw a kick, stopped and realized that I almost blew his balls to the throat! Then he ran over me and pushed me so I pushed him, it was so hard that he fell and he got up again and some friend run over him! It was hilarious! :D
It was the first day of exams, I was having a bad week, undecised weather, the bell had rang, I had English when some friend told me "Dani, Nico is thinking that you're gay! (I'm still closeted) he asked me: Do you know if Dani is cacorro ( very offensive word, worse than fag! ) because he is always trying to touch my hands!?" in that moment my heart broke more than it was already!
Right now things are getting a little bit better, but things are not the same!.
With Nico I'm starting to talk again with him, but it's not as it was last year. Handshakes got really normal, not like we used to stay touching hands now he just say hi, sometimes a handshake but he gets his hand out quickly. Eye contact now it's forgotten! Things are not the same! I HATE THIS!
Today was a great day.
I woke up with "Forever and always" from Taylor Swift (I love waking up with her songs).
Math class was awesome with the new teacher.
In English class some friends were talking about a trip to Amazonas and told me that I had to go!
In social studies the teacher was a total BITCH to my grade.
In science the teacher told us about Amazonas and gave us the details and last year prize (I might go there! :D).
I want to move to some random country: where being gay don't affect you, where having a different religion and not doing what a priest say makes my friends call me atheist or "You'll burn in hell!" I was born in the wrong country. I wish my dad had moved to Canada and that my mom had stand the winters.
Today Nico didnt came: he got sick, Got new math teacher, again Andy staring at me, went to some English class where I got really touchy with some classmate and again I'm having suicide thoughts! :(
Today at the computer lab some friend made a question:
She: Who wont get confirmed (some catholic thing in witch you will stay loyal to the Catholicism)?
Me: I won't!
Me: I don't have religion!
She: WHAT!! WHY!?
But the teacher made us stop.
In group direction I saw that where Nico sit was empty, so I made there. Then he came and some best friend (she knows I'm gay) told him: "Nico you can still make you space? He didn't answer. (he and her are like wood and glue! He never decline to be next to her!).
Yesterday I hanged out with some friends and in the car we weren't able to fit so I had to sit on my friend bf (it's really awkward since one day I had to do the same and he got a boner!) then when we arrived we saw "We Bought A Zoo" and my friend bf (he is really hot) putted his arm over my shoulder, but he was making jealous his gf because she was doing the same with her best friend almost sister.
When I got home, I was extremely tired and went to sleep.
1. My school has been changing the letter and schedule of my class.
2. The new math teacher quit his job for some personal reason
3. I had cancealed my appointment with the neuropsychologist
4. Went to Medellín for nothing
5. Nico is getting really weird: we used to talk every day, make eye contact a lot, have unnecessary touches, but since the last 2 days of school last year, we started separating and stopped talking. Every day is worse!! Idk what to do with him.
Today was such a great day!
New Spanish/group director teacher.
Didn't talked to my class in school (Today I hated them) except for some friend
I didn't talked to Nico in the entire day which helped me to focus in other things
Andrew came back to school, although he still have to do some exams. He caught me many times staring at him, but I looked away really fast and I caught him doing the same thing :D
Some friend fell in my leg and a rope almost kill my best friend :S
Today I found Nico flirting again with a friend that I used to flirt with to make Nico jealous (he is taking revange) and I got a little jealous and mad. Had a party for my group director and it was awesome. In the last period the teacher decided to take us out and Nico suddenly putted his arm with my arm many times, then I had my hands near my pocket and he got really close and putted his ass in my hand many times! It made my day! <3
Andrew. I didn't saw him :(. And the super hot guy was with the jerks of the grade, and I hate them!
Today at school I didn't saw Andrew or any of the new kids (maybe school is checking their exams). Got the new math/physics/group director teacher. Nico still trie to hold my hand after we shake hands and in the last period I found the right opportunity to touch Nicos arm and hand so I did it, when his best friend put his arm trying to dived us and then he did it completely. When they moved his best friend sat on his lap (weird) and stayed very close for a long time. Then I realized that:
Today on school it was one of those days that start bad, but ends really good.
In the morning the teacher of my group told us that she quit her job, because she got a new job near her house (she lives in Medellin and my school is in Rionegro) then the Andrew (the new kid) came —he was late— and he looked really cute with a huge smile and he said hi for the first time, but he came in the worst moment! Then someone took him to make some exams :(. (I didn't saw him until the last hour of school)
Today school was the same as yesterday, but Nico
(my crush) started saying "I'm only gay when I'm on the mirror" and "I'd love to have a black guy". —in a sexual way—
The new guy was taking exams all day :( so I couldnt see him, but when he showed up, he looked so cute and sexy, but he rearly talks and smiles. When he smiles he looks super cute!! <3
Yesterday I came from some trip to San Andres and I was texting with some friend when she tells me that I have school tomorrow and my mom thought that I was going to enter on Jan 23. When I came home, it was a mess because I had to unpack my suitcase, pack my school bag, search for something to write on (first day of school I don't do anything) and search for some uniform.