I won't be posting on here anymore because no one seems to give a crap about anything I post which is pretty messed up being that I came here for support and advice. Well I'll take my stories elsewhere. Goodbye!
~Pretty Upset At People On Here -.-t
Hello everyone! c: long time no post. I started junior year this past Tuesday. I am very happy with all of my classes. I will be trying out for dance team very soon. I hope to make Varsity with the big girls. I am in choir for the time being.
I'm going to spend my summer with the girl I like. I want to get to know her better and see how well we can get along. Just in case we end up together or something like that. She's shy and blushes easily. I think it's adorable. She's different than most girls that I've met. Daisy has this uniqueness about her from the minute you start talking to her. That's how I got so reeled in. If we don't have that spark, then I'm fine with just being friends. I have no idea what to say, but...
Let the adventures begin... <3
I hate it when people talk about themselves 24/7. Like even if you try to change the subject, they turn back to themselves. If you want to talk about yourself, look in a mirror and chat away. I don't need your life story all in one day. I can barely handle my own life. Thanks.
Hello everyone. I'm back. Since my last post, I've gotten out of my state of depression. I had a surgery and my small intestine is now sticking out of my body. I have an ileostomy. It's pretty cool, but it gets annoying. Only 5 more weeks left until my next surgery. I'll get my stoma pushed back in and my plumbing fixed. It's awesome, but painful. After all of this, I'll be close to normal.
Hey again. It's Jazzy again. I just wanted to say that I have a Youtube channel for my disease. I doubt that any of you know what my disease is like. It affects millions of people. You just don't know. I'm having surgery on May 10th. I wish more people would help our disease just like cancer. We hurt too and we suffer. So please support people with my disease.
Go to www.ccfa.org and visit my page on Youtube. I think it's www.youtube.com/BattleWithUC
Hey everyone. I'm back again. I've been pretty sick. I will probably get surgery in the next month or so. I hope it'll make me better. I might have to stop dancing for awhile. It's pretty depressing. I'll live though.
I'm back! I'm doing better than ever! I am still single but happy. I still talk to my ex, and we're friends now. I believe you can be friends with your ex. My life is back together. I love it. I'm hoping that the doctor let's me off my anti-depressants really soon! I'm on a sleeping pill because my body has a hard time falling asleep. I'm finally sleeping in my own room. I used to be scared of my room but I like it now. I have 4 new best friends. We hang out like all the time. This weekend is one of my friends birthday! I'm so excited. We're going to Universal Studios together.
I am so much better. It's been weeks since I've been here. I'm not sure where to start. I took the CAHSEE this week. I know I passed both parts. Whoot whoot! I'm happy and crazy hyper. I love my life right now. I still miss my grandpa but I know he's happy and not suffering anymore.
Today is Caitlin's birthday. I'm excited for her. I drew her a cupcake and said Happy Birthday. She doesn't really care that it's her birthday. She says it's just another day. I'm trying to be a good friend and make it more exciting but she won't talk to me anymore.
Eloisa rejected me. She sees me only as a friend. But she thought my gram was cute. I don't care about cute. It's just another tadpole in my pond that swam away from me the first chance they got. I'm not going to find my cute little tadpole. I don't think I'm going to be a "player" and take chances or risks. I'll sit back and wait. Because if someone wanted me like that, they'd look for me and fight for me.
Last Friday I lost my grandpa. He was the only grandpa I knew and we got really close in the past few years. He drove me to school everyday. But on Feb. 3rd he was admitted to the hospital because of a heart attack. And on Friday he had another heart attack. They revived him but right after he had another heart attack. He passed away a quarter to 5pm. It was awful. I cried a lot that day. And here I am, writing a eulogy for him and creating a slideshow of his pictures. His funeral is on Valentine's Day. I'm so scared to see him in a casket. I need a hug and words of motivation.
I came out to a close friend today. I felt so relieved. It was great. She was curious and happy for me of course. I told her about Eloisa and she approves. We can't wait to see what happens with her.
I hope Eloisa feels the same way as I do. My cute little bundle of laughs and sweetness. Ahhh <3
Homecoming day was just like any other day except for the pep rally, the football game, my halftime performance in the JV game, the winners of the elections, and the day before the homecoming dance.
The pep rally went great during both lunches, the JV game performance was even better, and my parents came to watch me perform at my JV game. I enjoyed it.
Next week is Valentine's Day. And of course our school is selling Valentine Grams. I bought two today. One for my bestie (wifey) and the other for this girl. She and I used to be pretty tight. We had a fight around my birthday in November. Her name is Eloisa. I love her so much (like a friend). But as I think about it now, I realize that we were much more than friends. We held hands a lot, kissed cheeks, hugged longer than necessary, and flirted on several occasions. You might think that it's nothing but I recall times where we acted more than just best friends. Here's one I remember...