Wow, I know it's been a while since I popped in here, but jeez guys. Oasis used to be this awesome friendly place where everyone could come and vent and get advice. Whats with everyone fighting all of a sudden? Why are people ganging up on other people over simple errors in reading or a poem? It's not the Oasis I used to know and love. People seem really overly defensive. Remember, you are here to get support just like everyone else. Theres no need to jump all over each other.
I've been in a weird mood as of late. Well, the past two or three weeks anyway. It's a phase I hit every couple of months and it sticks with me until I do something random. Usually, dying my hair or getting a different piercing does the trick and I can go on my merry way until a couple of months later.
Friday, as a spur of the moment thing, I dyed my hair an auburn color (deep reddish). It was right before I went out with my friends to see this really awesome Irish group at my college. It was so funny. All of a sudden I was just like "The name of the game is dye Lisa's hair". When I picked up the hair dye, I thought my brother's eyes were going to fall out. I'm originally blonde. So it was a crazy thing to do. Came out cool. Was totally convinced that my mom was going to absolutely freak. She loved it. I was cautious.
Like a functional relationship. Novelty, I know. But seriously, whats my problem? I should just become a hermit in a cave somewhere like I always threaten.
My lack of wisdom teeth are sore.
I am sick.
The end. *bows/curtsies*
Some Lisa randomness for ya! ^-^
I wish I had a Mab. Or had one. Maybe then I would be able to deal with life so much better than I have dealt with it. If wishes were rainbows...
Screaming "no" never makes it right. No matter how loud. Or how often. Or how much emotion is put into it. It never makes everything go away. Everything stays the same or continues to change making the loss feel worse and worse. And what should make it right? Saying "no", gets nowhere. No one listens.
Why are things happening this way? Wasn't I stronger than that? Couldn't I make a better decision? Didn't I have the will to walk away and just keep walking? Why do I always go back? Doesn't my trust and my feelings count for something????? Where is my heart? How many more times will it break?
You don't know strength until you know the story of Melissa Etheridge. She has never had it easy and she has worked damn hard to get to where she is today. She embraces who she is, she is open about the way she lives her life, and she openly loves her wife and children and doesn't let anyone believe otherwise.
Melissa was diagnosed with breast cancer a couple of months ago. She came through it and she is as strong as ever. But nothing can prove her strength better than her performance tonight on the Grammy Awards.
I'm ready to get out of college and move on. Fitchburg State isn't the place for me. Worcester State wasn't the place for me either. Maybe the Mass College of Liberal Arts would have been the best place. I guess I could always transfer. Atleast I can get all my required courses out of the way. Then I can move on and figure out what I really want to major in and do with my life. Right now I'm just in a lull. My writing isn't going far, I can't think of a thing to paint, and well I am just baffled by my lack of ability in anything.
They say that they don't know me
Never saw my face
And if they've never been there
Can they be sure there's such a place
They think if they don't answer
The world will pass them by
But there's a fire in their kitchen
And the water's three feet high and risin'
The only one I see standing up for me
Someone's shouting at me
You're all going to hell
It's been a really long time since I've updated here. But I love Oasis nonetheless. There are so many new faces. It's like, being the older inhabitants of Oasis, you get to witness the different generations. And it's amazing to see how similar the issues and problems are between generations. It's good to know that there are people out there who went through what you're living right now. It's almost comforting.
Can't say I wasn't expecting it. I was compromising who I am and I was destroying my own self worth. It needed to end for the time being. It wasn't healthy. But damn, it fucking hurts.
I finally have reached the point where I really just want to throw my hands up and say "Thats it. I give up." and let everything else win.
It's a catch-22, like I was telling Heather. I don't want to talk to my mom about it because I feel like that would ruin her happy life right now. But by not telling her, I'm ruining my life. And by not saying anything and giving in, I'd ruin both our lives.
It has come to my attention that I have almost no idea what I want to do with my life. I'm in college but we all know how that's working out. I can't think of a major that I can stick with and be happy about. I just can't figure it all out. I don't know why. I used to have some sort of hold on things but it all broke into pieces and got scattered in different directions.
There are so many things I've been neglecting. Like my guitar for instance. And my writing, and drawing, and generally all artistic things. Except singing. I'm still singing. I don't know what I would become if I didn't sing. It's really my favorite stress outlet.
Alright, well, not much has been going on. I have a $726 spring semester bill to pay. And I think I want to change my major. I want to do something with Interior Design. However, my college doesn't offer that as a major or a minor so I don't know what I am going to do about that. I don't even know if there is a college in the area that offers it and that I can afford.
I have to get a second job as well. I have my cell phone bill, spring semester bill, books for spring semester....etc. Also Christmas, and a whole lot of January birthdays coming up. And if I want the jeep then I need money to help fix it up. The body and everything is in great shape. But, it's got some minor auto part problems.
So it's time to pick out spring semester classes. I must say, I am not looking forward to it. My advisor talked to me for about an hour and a half yesterday and he was not really helpful...at all.. So far I have taken History of Architecture, Writing I, Basic Math II, and Philosophy of Human Nature. Although, my advisor did say that he believes I could take an American Lit class even though I haven't taken Writing II and I could take General Bio II without taking General Bio I. So, I guess I am glad he has some faith in me.
GOD DAMN IT! WHAT THE HELL!?!?!?!
Correct me if I wrong, shouldn't the president be someone who condones all ways of life? Who doesn't intend to infringe upon the rights of cititzens that live in the same nation? A person that will not segregate his own people for the sake of religion?
The way I see it, the president should not be imposing laws and suggesting changes that will alienate his own citizens. Everyone should be embraced and allowed to live their lifestyle. No one has the right to say "You love the wrong person and because of that you are disgusting and shouldn't be allowed the right to be happy." NO ONE! I am so angry right now its ridiculous.