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Going loony...

A. My friends are assholes.I have noone to talk to,so I'm ranting about life here.They are lazy.They're there when everything's normal and I can help them.The second I need someone everyone seems to have runaway...Screw 'em....
B.My best friend won't talk to me.Something major went on and she won't even talk to me at all...whatever...
C.My family is stupid.My mom yells at me and says I always side with my dad,which I don't.I think they're both to blame for the divorce.But she always says I blame her.That is some of the stupidest bullshit I've ever heard.And my mom and little brother are still constantly arguing like 3 year olds.Its embarassing to go out with them,its crazy.You'd think my own mother would grow up and shut up.

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I swore I was never going to do this...

But I've fallen for a friend.Hard.Like I jumped out of a plane and the parachute broke and I hit the ground and go splat hard....I hate myself.I'm not sure whether it matters,but he's bi.I'm not sure if it matters because he's the kind of bi that likes guys but usually girls.And he's older than me;I'm a sophmore and he's a senior.And I don't even know where this came from.Monday I just jumped out of the plane and now I'm in freefall.Well,I do know where it came from,he's like the sweetest guy I've ever known*OMG,now I'm getting soft,there really is something wrong with me*.He just came out to me Monday,and it was kinda odd.I think he was maybe flirting with me,but I don't know if he meant to or was serious.

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Just one of those days....

Today has got to be the day from hell.I just got back in school this week,and it already feels stressful.My mom just told me she wants to move back to Florida(she says that about every other week,and then drops the idea).It gets tiring of thinking I'm leaving my life and then just going back to normal that fast.And then,to top off today, my friend's exboyfriend pissed the **** out of me.It's amazing how people who I have never done anything to can have so much hatred for me.I'm walking back from the studio at school*my school has a major TV and theatre program,I just became a member of both programs*.Anyway,I'm walking back to class from the studio and he walks by me and mutter real quietly "ass fu**ing fag". I was at the door and just stood there for a second,thinking "Where the hell did that come from?" because this guy is the most unemotional guy ever.Not happy,sad,angry,or anything.Now that's bad enough.He's always muttered things around me,but I never really thought about it because I never understood what he said,and he is always polite when other people are around.But it just happened this guy is probably my boss for the next two years because I signed up to do lighting for the theater department,and he's in charge of that.It scares the hell out of me to think I'm going to work for this guy for another two years,I really do think he's crazy.After that I went to lunch and he and his friend sit right across from me and my two best friends.I said hey to try to stay polite,and because I don't have a problem with the other guy,and they both just stared at me.It weirded me out,and now I am actually kind of scared of this guy.Why must some homophobes be so...intimidating/scary like?

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