Fairylover2008's picture

Been a long two days

Exams for finals in college are finally over. They
are all this week but I some how got my planned on
today and yesterday. Which was a good thing because
I can stay home and excerise and put the rest of my
fake tree up and go christmas shopping. My birthday
is in a few days and the gifts for that are a mile
long I can't wait for my birthday to get here I will
be nineteen.
I am worried thought my poems seem to be going back

Fairylover2008's picture

Been a long two days

Exams for finals in college are finally over. They
are all this week but I some how got my planned on
today and yesterday. Which was a good thing because
I can stay home and excerise and put the rest of my
fake tree up and go christmas shopping. My birthday
is in a few days and the gifts for that are a mile
long I can't wait for my birthday to get here I will
be nineteen.
I am worried thought my poems seem to be going back

Fairylover2008's picture

Um Relax

Hum today and tomorrow are exams. There for the halls
are empty.I don't know why I feel like this is a very
stressful day. I meet Jonathan after class today and
we where talking I deleted my email because of harassment
and I am just waiting for all my accounts to clear
deleting and then sign up for news one's simply
because I don't know who is harassment. Jonathan is the
president of the Local GSA here on campus and I feel like with

Fairylover2008's picture

The Game

The game is one I've been playing forever and you
don't see how much I miss you. I've fooled myself and
those around me into thinking I am happy when
I am losing myself. At night sometimes I still hold
the cover tight and cry as long and hard as I can
no one but me knows the reason why and no one but me understands
this rant. I'm playing this game then in the middle
I stop I pull out the brakes and I change the rules so fast that I

Fairylover2008's picture

Um Hum

So I am reading this book and its a crock of shit (my lanuage will get me in trouble
or make me famous a little information there) I think the book is called
The curing it is about homosexuality. Saying it is a diease and that it can be cure
Yeah right half the stuff it says to do is to get so drugged by doctors and others
that you have no choice in who you love and who you don't. I don't like the book

Fairylover2008's picture

Yeah Right and you think its easy

I simple am going to leave this a journal entry thought
its so much more than that.

When
When I rain down wisedom why don't you pay
attention do I look stupid to you? I'm years
and years wiser than you think than you know
wiser than my eighteen years yet when I talk I feel
the need to scream at you. At the top of my lungs
The clothes the makeup the live style you pretend
to live is all a hoax You do what they want and yet

Fairylover2008's picture

My story if you wanna hear it

I was maybe 13 when I went thought the "stage" of
deciding who I liked and like you I still had a
strong liking for the oppisite sex. Unlike you
when I decide it threw me into a down ward sprial that
I am still trying to come back up from I still
remember the day I decide this was who I was going to be
I remember that I got deathly sick and refused to
talk I thought about killing myself all the time

Fairylover2008's picture

I am afraid of losing it all

I wondered yesterday if I have been chasing hollow dreams. This is why
I have came to this fork in the road that just a few months ago I came to. The first one
was do I move away from home or keep getting closed minded opioions. I moved and got a little stronger
Know I am at another fork that has three way to go and I can only pick one.
It concerns my major. My parents wanted me to go for Criminal Justice. My dad's dream

Fairylover2008's picture

To much has happened

Let me start on the Thuesday and work my way to today. On thuesday I had resheral for the chistmas
show. Then I didn't get out till 10:00 that night. When it was suppose to be over
at 9:00 but no he had to have it perfect. On the third was are first show. Let me
tell you I hate coed dressing rooms. I mean how do they expect me not to look at other girls changing
I went into the shop area and watched MTV with Jonathan who is also gay. Well then we get on stage opening

Fairylover2008's picture

I'm on a roll

Wow wow. So much has happened in one day I have a christmas play in class today and tomorrow
I am going to miss that class. I am a little sleepy. I miss sleeping I also have some
quotes to put in this entry.

Giving money and Power tp goverment is like giving whiskey and car keys to teenage boys.

Conform and be dull.

Believe a word with so much power and yet so much mustery if not to anyone else then just to me.

Fairylover2008's picture

Third Time today I love this place

Really I do love this place. I don't know if it's because I can
let free of what but anyways this is my third post today
but thats o.k. I have some more news and this time it is good and bad
I am having to stay at school tomorrow till 9:00 p.m. the bad news
the good news I am either going to go out to lunch
with Jonathan or Linda someone is going to entertain
me from 2:10 p.m. to 6:00 p.m. when I have to go back to the class

Fairylover2008's picture

I have news and its all bad

O.K. my twin sister Danielle or D as I call her just come back from Europe a
complete and totally different person and I was hoping she would came back the same
The look in her eyes when she talked to me last night was that of pure hate. She
was going back to see my mom and dad and then she was going back to live
with her boyfriend in New York. How can two people from the same parents be so different

Fairylover2008's picture

My Place feeling comfortable in this skin

So anyways I noticed yesterday when I am out with my friends I am the same person
I am in the classroom. I still like the same things and I act the same way
Yet I noticed a lot of my friends are one person in school and a totally different
person outside of school. Take for example Anna, she is 5'0 brown short hair
brown eyes and in class can't be quite for two mintues when you get her out of class

Fairylover2008's picture

Let me tell this without interruption

A flashback in sorts

The Mood is we've been driving around all night
with some friends. Doing nothing, smoking it up
in the car because everyone's parents are home
because it's a weeknight. So i'm all warm and happy
and lightly toasted but i'm starting to get a little
anxious, because its getting late, and I have
to be home soon or else i'll get in trouble because
there is school tomorrow of course she doesn't have school unless at

Fairylover2008's picture

Love you/ reflections/ Child/ old now/ truth not in that order

Reflections
I lay awake I toss and turn wonder why my parents never
understood me why my sibling where embrassed of me
why my life after school seemed dull and gray at the end of the day why can't it all be the same?
When I look in the mirror I see someone I don't like someone I can't be
why is my reflection is always laughing at me

Truth
Know that the truth is out do you still love me now that my true idenity becames clear

Syndicate content